[Pinkie]

Dear diary...

I dont know where to begin to tell you how my morning started....I thought everything was going great between us but it seems that the fates are cruel. What am I to do when they think the way they do? Am I supposed to brush off the thoughts and harsh words like I do with everything else? Or do I take them to heart because its your family?

This morning my heart was broken from the very person who I thought would never break it. Now im sitting here in a daze thinking about everything that happened between us. The words we exchanged and the thoughts we both shared...they all come to a sad end and two days before three years... It really pains me that one person of your family could wreck a love I thought would never die.

Now I sit here thinking of the past...but when I look to the future what do I see? I used to see us getting married, having kids and growing old together. Dying in each others arms and finally resting in gods green earth still holding each other with a love that would never die....Now when I look I see nothing but darkeness....a vast expanse of nothingness that is swallowing my soul and heart the more I look into it.

You say that you love me...that you would do anything to make me happy, yet you cant see that what is happening is causing me the most pain I have ever felt. I lost you today...in one swift motion you were gone and I have no one to thank but the people who gave you life...

So onto you I say my final thoughts....thoughts that I do love you and would do anything to fix what is now broken...but what is broken can not be fixed. I am sorry it has come down to this...this nothingness, but I feel its the only way to be free. Take the good times and great memories we had...like the first day we met...the first day you said you loved me....take them all and hold them tight...you dont want those vanishing like the future I thought we had.

With fleeting love....Me.