Stronger then a back stabber
if you stab me in the back and paralyze me ill learn to walk again, if you tell the world my deepest secret ill hold my head high and find a new one you wont ever know, if you make me cry til my makeup runs ill whipe it off and start fresh, if you ruin my life like you did before ill build it up again from the ashes, if you shoot me dead in the head and cut out my heart just for fun ill live long enough to take back my heart and tell you... your a sad sad person and i hope you had fun playing your little game cuz it was hell for me but guess what? i won anyways... bury me deep and hope we dont meet again cuz this girl is brave strong and will not die easy.
Moving On
the suns gone now and so are my thoughts about you. in the night i am free from the burdens of the day. i can breathe and relax. i think about you rarely now but when i do the tears threaten to break free and my soul feels weak. i look up and theres the boy who took your place. the one who whipes away the tears and makes me smile. the boy who keeps insanity pain fear and depression away. i am happier with him then i ever was with you. so take whats left of your love and take the scar you left on my heart and leave. your not welcome in my heart anymore.
Painful Insanity
bloody footprints down the hall smeared red hands against the wall screaming why why must i fall trying harder and harder not to hear you call waking from a dream of fear trying hard to keep in the tear my minds gone white as snow blank and the people around are walking the plank my lifes in chaos and full of pain hurry now or youll never speak again my minds in a bloody painful blur i just realized in this life there is no cure i cant begin to see through the mist as i dodge blindly every fist oh snap, i didnt dodge, i guess its time for more pain, hang on wait a minute, nevermind its not real, this pain, its only me, im insane.
The Boy
his eyes, from cold to warm, they change his soul with them, i fear him no more, i welcome his love, and hate his distance, life is great when he holds me, okay when he cant, the boy i speak of has my heart, as he tries to find feelings long left behind, i wait for the day he can give me his heart again, i missed his hugs, kisses, and humor, it is great to be near him again, my life is a happy one with him in it. ♥
A Love Worth Fighting For
saw your face in the crowd today, felt you stare right through me, is this the rest of our lives, knowing the love we both have exists and constantly ignoring it, i dont like this life i dont embrace it as my own, the only thing i wouldnt change is you and me, that blissful love and shocking electric reaction, the all around natrality and rawness of what we are together, yoour kiss your hug you simple scent digs at my heart making it scream and ache to belong to you again, i just wanted you to know, your all i think of, all i want, you give me hope when i have none, making me smile when i wanna cry, you you are the one, the one my heart needs, the one i love.
Please Come Back </3
that sound you hear, that cracking breaking sound, that sound making you cover your ears, the one from you darkest dreams, that sound echos from me, from deep inside my soul, down in the center of my being, that spot where the organ that beats was, that now empty broken spot in my body, it screams for a boy, a boy i already lost, the one i need, the one i despirately want back, oh how i miss that boy, so why dont i get him back you may ask, i dont cause i cant, it is not my choice to make, i feel so sad so alone so broken, i want to feel that familiar love that once forbidden touch, i want him back! :( </3