...About Myself.
This, is what I hate about myself.
Warning: {RANT!}
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Okay, I just want to say that I don't hate myself, this is just something I hate about me, if that makes any sense at all.
I'm extremely skinny. I'm fourteen years old, going into my first year of High School, and I only weight 80 pounds. I'm tiny compared to my friends, and at school I get made fun of and laughed at and joked about, whatever else. If I had a choice, I would gain weight. But no matter how much I eat, it seems impossible to gain weight. I've even gone so far as to only eat junk food. But still, nothing helped me gain weight. Please know: I'm a very healthy girl. I don't each much junk food, if any. I only ate it a lot that one time to attempt to gain weight. My parents don't buy soda's or chips, we buy fruits and vegetables. I just thought I'd make it clear, that I'm back to my healthier diet.
Anyway, people tell me that I'm so lucky. But really, I'm not. It sucks ass being so skinny. It's to the point where I'm getting
used for other peoples benefits. I never realized it until recently. I honestly don't know who my real friends are anymore.
I would seriously do almost anything to gain a little bit of weight. I wish I could at least be one hundred pounds. That would at least be pretty normal. But instead, I'm twenty pounds under.
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I. Hate. This.