[Serah]

Thanks for all the responses everyone.

I stated that I'm horrible because I'm tired of hearing that from people. I tried talking to a friend about this matter and she pretty much told me, that it wasn't fair to just sit there and deny him even if he begs. But it seemed like to me that she is easy to give into pressures because she doesn't want to seem selfish.

I just don't want to feel like a bad girlfriend or something because I'm not even willing to try. I had tried before with someone else and I couldn't do it. Plus I apparently just have a really bad gag reflex. When I go to sleep I need a cup of water next to my bed so I can clear my mouth or I could choke. My body is just odd like that.

I have spoken to him about his friends and said if they were his friends they'd try to accept me but they never have. The first time I met them we had dinner then they were like, "Well, we have a raid." and literally just left us at the table to play World of Warcraft. Maybe it's just me but I thought that was really rude. If you know you have a raid planned or whatever, don't invite people over just to ditch on them. Even if it's me, I feel someone needs to take the step and say something. If they don't accept me I would hope he would understand it's not me, it's them.

Thank you for all that input, Rose. It's not that I completely ignore his 'manhood'. I've giving him hand jobs and stuff. I just wasn't sure about everything. Like I said on the blow job matter up above, I'm very uncomfortable and anxious about it. I'm afraid of the same thing happening. Plus with my throat/mouth being all weird. I don't think anyone wants vomit on their junk...

Oh yeah, I have heard that Pink. That different foods effect it. And also yeah, I think he has learned that it's better to wait. We haven't been dating too long, two years I think. I have a pretty bad memory in that category sadly. But I am afraid of him finding an easy woman. I certainly wouldn't take him back without an STD test, that's for sure.

Yes, we have done cute stuff before too, like going out to dinner or cuddling on the couch watching a movie. I just know that sex is a part in the relationship. It ties in with our emotions as well. But yes, sex is not everything in a relationship and should never be treated as such. That's always a thought too. Hmm.

I do appreciate everyone for giving an input of some kind. It makes me feel better.