[Rosekitten]

How are you terrible? o.o

For starters if you felt like you were not ready then he should respect that if he really cares. Maybe I'm old fashioned or something but men are such pigs now a days or at least a number of them I have dealt with in the past -.- Sorry i don't mean to insult all of you nice guys out there but really... there is more to a relationship then sex. Personally I enjoy a good cuddle time or sexy time, you don't have to go all the way and still not enjoy the others company D;

Even if you were in love with him it sounds like you deserve someone better anyway. If he was so upset because of no sex then he can get someone else who is willing or happy to give him just that. ~nods~

Also on the blow jobs note... its up to you, same as the sex deal really. If you feel like you are not ready or do not enjoy it to some extent, or even feel uncomfortable about it or anything with your mouth in that area I would not fret about it. Personally I dislike giving them myself, my jaw feels like it wants to lock up whenever i have tried in the past ^^;

Granted im sure that he wouldn't have minded a bit of attention, even if you didn't give a blow job, guys seems to feel special or loved (whatever word you want to insert here) if you do something your not keen on doing or at least try to do it for them. Maybe im shallow on this thought though... I normally try to do other things to spoil or show kano that he's special to me other then blow jobs or using my mouth down there ^^;

maybe i should shut up now xD