[Espy]

o.O;; First of all, you aren't a terrible person for refusing to do what you're not comfortable with doing. If you're gonna puke, then don't risk it. I mean, it's good that he knows and understands, but since you've made it clear that you're not too willing to do that, you don't need to force yourself.

...Well, if you seriously think he'd cared about your playing with it rather than keeping your mouth a nice distance away, go for it. If I were him, I wouldn't think you were leading me on...since you'd already said you can't give a blowjob. ...That's a really awkward scenario. MOVING ON.

Um...okay. If he's tempted to cheat on you because he wants to have sex...to me, that just shows he's really not mature enough. And if you feel that way, too, I don't think you're wrong. He needs to understand that if you're reluctant to do it with him, then it's really not worth it.

On that friend deal. In my opinion, if his friends truly cared about him (and I'm not even talking about their attitude towards you yet), they would not ridicule his relationship with you. They'd also probably try to, at least to some degree, let you into their group, and care about you enough that it doesn't bounce back and hurt your boyfriend in turn. But think about it: Your deal is with him, not his friends. Why do you need to be sorry for your relationship? It's not as if it hurt any of them. I'm assuming you've tried telling him already; you should probably keep reminding him about maybe needing to talk to his friends and settle things. Also, try to not listen to them if you can.

....Right, think I'm done for now.