[Daring Scylla]

dear sweet friend
i love you.
i'm sorry she chose to act that way to you. i'm so so sorry that she ruined it. i'm sorry that all you wanted was closure, and all she wanted was to be even more of a bad person than she's already been to you. i'm sorry she made you break down. i'm sorry she's caused this for you. i'm sorry she brought up every little thing that made you into what you are today. a sad person.
but i'm not sorry it's over. now i'm hopeful. i'm hoping you'll find things to distract yourself, like you always do. i'm hoping you'll figure out a way to get over it and surpass it. i'm hoping that one day i'm going to see you smile again, unguarded, without hesitation, without wondering what you're going to have to go through later to pay for that. i'm hoping that one day you're going to stand up, say 'eff that' and get on with it. i know you will. but i hope it's soon.
and i'm sorry i can't always be there for you. i'm sorry you're so locked in your own head sometimes that you can't see me right in front of you screaming to get out, get out of your own prison and go on with the world.
but i know i'm going to try. and you're going to be good and happy again. i know it.