[Tiva]

I am scared, I had successfully gotten him out of every aspect of my life for 2 years. And now I find out that he is my replacement for work. I all most had a panic attack right there in the office, just his name on the paper, Tyler Rhodes. I had hoped that the feeling when I went into work this morning was wrong, but it wasn't. It was your bike yesterday that was there when I pulled up for Doggie Daycare on to be told I wasn't needed.
How am I going to tell Alpha that for the next 3 weeks I am going to be working with the guy that cheated on me with 5 different girls? That started dating some one that i consider my little sister, only to still call me when he was drunk? That showed up at my school 5 hours away last year and scared me so badly that I left school until i had to go to class on Monday?
How am I going to keep it from my Mom? She hates him, hates how he manipulated me. How he showed up at my house at 2 am and threatened the safety of my cat to get me outside then tried to run me over with a 4 wheeler. How even after that I went back to him to feel wanted. How I dated him and another guy at the same time to make him feel how I had felt the 5 times previous.
He scares me still. He scares me because I know that he knows how to push every single one of my buttons. He is big enough to pin me down and no one at work would bother to check out side for over an hour. Having to work with him scares me, but having to be alone with him is even worse.

I am scared, and the only thing to do with my fear is to face it head on. But I don't want to.

Tiva