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One my my hubby's lady friends came over at some point today while I was at work and they took a pic together and one of our other friends asked me "who is that" I'm like I don't fucking know.. now she is going to start drama..


But then another one of my friends had popped up saying there was a comment on one of her other pictures...

Guy~ "Is Mike your bf?"
Her~ no. im single. but we are talk talking. but we arent ready to be in a relationship.

So we stayed up until 3:30am talking.. it was finally a much needed talk.. We are both tried to trying.. What that means for me is trying to solve problems and nothing gets resolved. We both agree that we jumped the gun on getting married per say. But we want to be together. We also agree that there are problems that have gone on so long that we don't know how to fix.. So whatever the outcome, he wasn't it to be a mutual agreement..

he was saying if we get divorced.. he doesn't want a normal one.. he still want to be there in my life and that way we can work on the problems and maybe after some healing try again..

I don't know if I could handle still having him around.. I mean how can I heal and what not if he is still around?
Him and I in a very weird way are made for each other.. I don't want to lose him..

So we were going to separate but then he was like I don't want to unless its comes down to it..

I flat out told him I wasn't going to to this back and forth crap.. Its not fair on him or I to do that. He wanted to know my honest opinion and I told him. Then his mom came over and then he changed his mind..

About a month has past since this and very little has started to change..