An eyebrow rose and his chewing slowed. "That's where you go when you think about Christmas?" he laughed, heartily, and took another bite of his ice cream before waving his spoon around at the table. "Yeah, I can see why. Everyone around you is bursting with joy and happiness and you have none." Amante shrugged, "You have to watch everyone with their normal families and their normal lives and wonder why you can't have it." He mulled over the imagery of such happiness and turned his gaze down. "I mean, for those who feel those thoughts taking over them- not the whole world."