[Lauv Keiko]

Alright, so as we all know, smoking is a bad habit. A really really bad one. The top one bad habit, other than excessive alcohol intake at a regular basis.
I have started smoking again. I smoked before, when I was 16 until I was 17 and suddenly stopped. So for about 3 years, I was smoke free until about two months ago. (not smoking at the moment because the bf doesn't like it). I remembered the feeling of smoking; it usually calms my senses down. I would get this numbing feeling along my fingers and my head would feel light and I'd just sit around at home and think then slowly doze off.
Now that I'm smoking again, that feeling is so good. Especially now that I'm stressed with work and personal troubles. When I was a teen, I'd smoke one or two in a day, but not everyday. However, recently I have this urge to smoke 4-5 sticks a day and want to do it everyday.
If you want to know what I smoke, I only smoke flavored ones or special ones. I'm not a fan of marlboro and it's fellow manly regular flavor. I smoked Gudang Garam (the yellow colored one, forgot the flavor, but damn it was so sweet and soothing).
And currently, smoking this one:

Yep, it's vanilla mint. It's not that sweet and as soothing as Gudang Garam (the yellow one) which has 5% marijuana in it, well all gudangs have 5% mj in it. But this black bat vanilla mint smoke is so minty, it actually clears my throat and sinus. Weird huh? a cause of a variety of respiratory diseases actually clears the air ways. Kinda makes me laugh.
Anyways, I'm planning on only smoking this kind of cigarette brand and specifically this flavor.

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Also, I don't smoke in public where people can see me. I hate doing that, I respect others for not smoking at all so I won't ruin their lungs by me smoking. I also think that it's kinda a private thing, the smoking that is, because my main reason why I smoke is to calm myself down so that I could get a good sleep or just chill.


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People who have seen me and finds out that I smoke are quite shocked that I smoke. For one, they think I only eat to relieve stress and they think I'm a goody-two shoes. Then their opinions on me change once they find out. It kinda pisses me off because a stick alone changes these people's opinion on your personality thinking that you're a different person, you remain the same, you just smoke.


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I posted this here to know what your idea is on smoking and if you have suggestions on how to stop this urge, then you're more than welcome to post.

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and please, if you're just gunna start flaming, better not post. We have trisphee to's.