[Gallagher]

Self,

I honestly don't know what you've been thinking. You didn't tell anyone when you got back together with him. What will you do now that you're breaking up? You're not even surprised, are you? You're such a hypocrite, and a liar. Who will you talk to now? No one else knows about it. It was stupid of you to try in the first place. You knew exactly how this would end. You're screwed up, and you know it. You can't be what anyone needs, because you can't even handle your own emotions.

You should feel guilty. It's pathetic, the way you pick apart your own issues, learning about them and trying to get some sense of control. Just because you can tell people terms, that doesn't mean they'll understand. It doesn't mean you'll be any better off. So you feel neglected, lonely, and misunderstood. So you've been raped and abused. So what? Do you know how many other people have, too? You act like you've gotten past it, like you can help other people get past it, too, but you know what you do. Sure, it's not cutting, but you do hurt yourself, don't you? Everything you say you are is a lie.

If you have no work to do, stop all of this shit and just go get drunk. You might as well feel alright for a few hours. It sure as hell couldn't make things worse.