[Mizeria]

its my first job ever. I've held it for over 2 years now, and I started at 11 an hour.

I hate water. it just tastes funny because of all the other crap I've always had to drink.

well my first real relationship last a year and a half and that was in high school.
then I was pretty much single for 3 years.
[a couple of, hey lets go out, and then me getting dumped a week later so I don't really count them since we only went out like, once. and one on again off again long distance thing... but that never really went anywhere. we just talked a lot. and then would stop talking. more friends then anything else]

then another 6 months with my high school sweetheart. and then we broke up. again

the 3ish months with the guy that moved to fast and fucked up his chances for life.

another 6 months with my high school sweetheart.

2 weeks of being single.

about 6 months with my high school sweetheart.

a week with my best friend, of 8 years, with him breakin up with me cause it was just to awkward, and he doesn't want to lose me. So lets just go back to "normal".... and he hasn't been talking to me since. not really.

and now.. I'm single.
with 3 exs after me.
tony being.. um.. difficult
and my sanity slowly slipping away.

I tend to stay away from situations that could put me in those positions.
I could handle myself. don't get me wrong.
but it makes me uncomfortable.

and I like to know who I'm with... before I'm with them.
I dunno... makes it easier on me to relax.
I'm not a good lookin gal.
I hate how i am, and how i look.
with all the issues I have... I don't think I would be able to enjoy the one night stands. I would just freak out during them and end up getting laughed at...