[Mizeria]

oh its bad, cause Hi I'm Mizzy and I'm a sex addict.
And I haven't had sex in a while..
xD

So since he was hitting on me on Sunday night I was already thinking about him that way... which was weird.
cause I wanted to be that one girl that didn't "fall for tony"
but he's a good guy, and he keeps me sane.
which is hard to do nowadays.

so anywaaays,

I told him I don't just fuck guys.
Its the way I am. It needs to mean something more.
I need a relationship... and I want it to be something... idk "special"
So even though I'm addicted and think about it all the time... I have control.

Which is odd, I'm gathering.

when I told him I needed to be in a relationship with that person. He turned around and asked me out. Which totally makes me think HE JUST WANTS SEX so I didn't say anything and sorta laughed at him. later on I asked him if he was serious, and he said yeah, it would be whatever you wanted it to be. A relationship or just sex.. or whatever. and I again didn't say anything.

by the end of his shift he was pretty much begging for sex. "so we should have sex in the bathroom." -No- "Or in the back of that guys truck" -NO- "Or on the table...?" -NO-

and it went on and on.

Finally I asked him why he wanted to have sex with me so bad, because I don't think highly of myself. I'm not a looker... I'm not someone that's always sought after. I'm just not.

and he had a lot of answers but in the end didn't know which one was the real reason why.

"Because you said you've been with two guys, that they didn't last long enough for you, that I couldn't classify your tastes because I didn't know you well enough. On top of all of that, you're not like anyone I've ever gone after. You're not some stupid little girl with no brain that just says yes, You're the only one that's ever talked circles around me... the only one that's ever said no."

All of that was on Wednesday night/Thursday morning.

Thursday night and Friday night he acted like none of that EVER happened...
which confused the shit outta me... honestly I was kinda hurt by it.

then last night once everything had died down. he was back to the, "you should fuck me in the bathroom" thing.

Before I left I said "maybe if you switched your tactic you might get more out of this. I told you why I will always say no. I'll see ya Wednesday tony." and walked out before he could say anything.