[Helsinki Harlot]

Cigarettes have kinda always been in my life. I think everyone in my family's smoked at some point. Except for my lil' sis and I'm proud of her for that. I hope she never picks it up.

I laugh when some people come up to me and talk about peer pressure and how they're sad that I got pushed into it, but I picked up my first cigarette by choice. I just woke up one morning never around anyone who was smoking at the time and said "I want to smoke." So I did. I can't even really say I regret it all too much. It's really toned down the anxiety I had growing up.

Tho' I hate rude smokers. Like, it's your choice to smoke but doesn't mean you have to inflict it on other people. People who smoke around kids piss me off to no end. Even when I'm outside on campus at a designated smoking area, if a kid walks by I tuck the cigarette behind my back and even if I just took a drag I hold it in until the kid's passed by.

I rem. going to a pool/bar area once and this fucking stupid ass lady walks in (and we're ALL smoking) with her god damn baby in her arms, trots her in, and lights up a cigarette. It took so much effort not to deck that lady in the face. That's just stupid. Hell, even if my sisters around I always ask her if it's okay I smoke around her 'cause I know it gives her a headache, I generally don't but every so often I do and as long as I make sure she's far enough away from it she's fine it, which is sweet of her.

I just don't like people who are rude to me because of it. I'm tired of sitting at a table and having people walk by giving me this ugly ass look or yelling at me "smoking kills" or some other shit, especially when I'm outside. There's more shit coming out of your car exhaust than my cigarette. I just don't like how some people are on a high horse about it.

Or this one girl, oh if she'd done this to me I would've hit her. I had a class in high school with her and my history teacher (coolest fucker ever, I took regular world history with him and then took his medieval elective class) one day we were all juts chilling and he asked us how many of us smoked and we got into a convo about it and this one girl pipes up and says "I was walking one day, and I saw a guy smoking next to his girlfriend, I walked up to him, took the cigarette from his mouth and threw it away telling him that smoking is bad for you." That's just rude.