[Belial]

As someone who does suffer from depression, it's very easy for me to push people away. I don't want my burdens becoming someone elses issue and I do relate to this.

I don't have a right to judge other people and who they choose to love. If the OP chooses to stay then I don't think hurling insults is called for.

He does sound like he has some trust issues as well, that could be harder to work on but if you both love each other then this will just be a door you both have to open.

Writing a letter sounds like a good idea, sometimes writing things out is less emotional than speaking with someone. With depression, it could be more beneficial to be "to the point". I have an easier time expressing myself with letters than speaking. This could also help the OP.

Knowing how hurtful he is unintentionally being could make it worse. I myself don't mean to hurt people but I can't always escape that. Depression isn't the easiest thing to just "get over it" and it isn't always to do with self worth. I know I am a good person, however sadness is a daily thing for me. I have no real reason for it, I'm in a comfortable place. I am not suffering from physical sickness but I do have time where I don't even want to get up in the morning. Staring at the wall seems more favorable than my responsibilities. I force myself anyway and feel as if I am an actor in a place instead of living my life.

I am not trying to make him sound like a special snowflake but unless you know someone who does suffer from depression, I doubt you can relate. Depression really is like trying to run a race with various size weights all over your body. It is truly difficult, hurts, and not easy to jump over anything at all.

While it may be easy and more convenient to chalk someone up, in matters of the heart. . . .only the people involved get to make those choices. I don't think the OP should get discouraged, I honestly think it will work out should both of you work on the relationship.

Him going to strip clubs might not be helpful though.