[Serah]

Hi everyone, it's me again...

I'm not sure where else to put this or who else I can talk to. I was hoping maybe you guys could give me some advice on my situation. I'm stuck in a rut right now. I've been seeing a therapist for half a year for my depression but this subject wasn't something she really helped me with. My problem is I don't know what I'm going to do career-wise. I am a college student halfway through to getting a computer science degree. It took me this long to realize I am no good at what I do. I have always been interested in computers and testing and debugging. But, code-wise I don't like it anymore. I look at what I'm doing or when I get help and I think, "What does this even mean and why should I care?" It's scaring me. I don't feel like I'm good at anything at all. The only thing I've done is work in community service. Helping customers with issues and walking them through processes and such. My therapist told me it was good I was figuring this out now instead of down the road but what didn't help me was hearing, "A degree is just a degree, you can always change it later." I can't afford to keep going to school forever it's emotionally draining me and I don't have a lot of money even with my parent's help. When I tried to talk to my father about this issue, he was less than kind. He told me that I need to figure out what I want and figure it out now. I don't need that kind of stress. And now I have this feeling of just hating my job. I know everyone says that but I just want to quit. I want to take a break for my emotional stresses and maybe find a less stressful job. I don't mind doing retail because I don't mind people or helping them but my job right now is stressful in the way that we have to make quotas even if we're rude to people. I can't stand that. I can't stand my boss breathing down my neck and making a mockery of me. It's stressful and half the time I go home and cry. I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't talk to my family or my dad is just gonna get mad at me again. My friends only offer, "I'm sorry" as comfort and sometimes that's not enough. I sit by myself and cry feeling like I have no one to talk to and not the slightest clue on what to do...