[Muff Muff]

Well I used to smoke before I got pregnant, we both did. She is 5 months now and doesn't breast feed anymore. I defiantly wash my hands before handling her as well.
As far as cost goes, we're fine with money and she's even got her own savings started and we still are adding to it. I haven't smoked since before I got pregnant, and to be honest I think it's what killed me and my man's relationship. We're both so stressed we can barely tolerate each other. lol And I think smoking would be better than me becoming an alcoholic like my father. lol
I am aware of SIDs and all of that, trust me. lol It scares the poop out of me. We stand outside where we can see her with the doors and windows shut and keep it on the other side of us, as well as keeping it away from us when we're not inhaling. I just feel so guilty I don't want her to hate me. That is my biggest fear, oddly enough. But we both are addicts, and I know he wanted to start up too.
Thank you all for the information. If she starts acting any different I know I'm going to quit and try to figure out what to do to help stress levels, but I don't think there is anything we can do for that. :c