[Asami]

Edit: make sure to read some of my later posts because I didn't explain well enough in this post about the situation this is only a part of the problem also editing on another part at the end of this post


So as most of you know I got the kindle fire for my birthday. Not whet I wanted(which was a laptop) but its still pretty cool. The problem is I cant do anything on it unless I have wifi for Internet until I get an amazon card or whatever.I cant even get free stuff. So I'm a little put off by that. My dad promised to get me a card so I could get stuff to make this kindle actually worth something and usable.
So today my mom wanted me to go around town with her rather early for my taste I couldn't get up and she draggged me around this weekend waking me up early after not being able to sleep at all. I'm just bone tired! She threw a fit! Started calling me names saying I was a lazy b**** and so on. Blaming the mess in the kitchen on me even though I wasn't here at all this weekend saying I had to clean it up alone! She then stormed off and called my father telling him that they are going to get me a card for this now worthless kindle and they never will. She hung up and left slamming the door. Apparently I just have to to everywhere with her or its the end of the world. I just need sleep! Dx

I didn't ask for this kindle. I wanted a simple laptop that you didn't have to buy a damn gift card to use e.e I'm just pissed off and not to mention my pmdd makes me want to throw this thing across the room and shatter it to a million pieces the cry my eyes out and cut myself!

I really hate this house. I'm forced to do all the work and if I question anything my parents say I am not on their level. Oh I'm sorry when did you become God? They are religious doesn't the Bible say ALL MEN ARE CREATED EQUAL?!?! My mom doesn't do anything around the house. She says she had us kids to do all the work! Okay then why dont any of the other boys do any work? Why is it all up to me to keep this house looking okay??

And I cant leave right now. I need a job and when I get one I don't know what will happen. My family constantly puts me down saying I'm lazy and worthless and stupid because I cant get a job. They are the ones who moved to a small town. And I would have to get a job within walking distance so that really limits the possibility of getting a job.

//sigh
I'm forcing myself to stop ranting because I might say something I'd regret. And I don't want to do that...

Any thoughts?
I cant help feeling forgotten and unloved because on my birthday I had to tell everyone it was my bday
my mom and dad didn't even get a cake I asked "so what type of cake did you get me" and my dad gasped and was like " omg we forgot to get a cake!" -_- total bs.
My best friend made me a cake from scratch. She made me feel better. Idk am I sounding like a total spoiler brat?? Am I wrong to feel this way?!?
Sorry I ranted a bit more

Excuse any spelling mistakes I'm on this stupid kindle and I hate touch typing. I am not good at it like I am at keyboard typing.

Edit:
also I am very sleepy so things may be vague so ill explain it better later if you ask about it



Edit:
If you dint care to read my other posts ill give you a good breakdown in a pm