[NikkoGallarado]

Thanks it's just I am having a bit of hard time wanting to talk to any one, I wanna rant but at the same time I feel like I shouldn't but I also feel like I am bothering people. I know people wanna help but it gotten to the point I am scared to ask for help from any one or even want to express anything cause I may or may not want to hear what the person will say to me. I spent the whole day crying screaming at Ed then having a screaming match at my sister over the phone over family life and things that I have done. I am the older one and she talking to me like I am a kid but I know what I wanted I know what I wanted to do. I never wanna be like them following a crowed I was always the outsider looking in on them.

I'm sorry Fuax I am so sorry. . .I didn't mean to go off like this and in your thread. . .I think I have been enough of a bother as it is.

I am the manry-est of men!