[Pinkie]

Oh my....Well for pinkie ever since a young age she was the same as you but different I guess. Al long as I can remember I have wanted to be a male. To the fact that from about the age of ten I started saving to pay for my own sex change. Everything about me screams male. The way I act, dress, speak...my perverted mind hehe....but then I met my bf and things slightly changed.

I am still my crude, weird male looking and dressing female that I have been for many many years now. I got alot of flack from alot of people because of this even from my own parents with my father telling me "Im supposed to have three girls not two and a son" he told me that the day I shaved my head lol.

All I got to say is really just be who you want. I have so many people in my life that are one thing then act like the other lol and I wouldnt change anything about them for the world. I am sure your great and awesome how ever confused you are.

My friend Mat is like that...well I should say was like that until I took him to the gay bar one night...now hes a drag queen at the bar and some times its hard to tell if he is male or female but my love for him will never change.

My advice to you is that yes it may take some time to get used to the fact or to know what you want but when you know and you embrace it dont let anyone change your mind for its what you want!