[Rosekitten]

When she seemed to pull away after all of that he knew he had really fucked things up. Let alone when she spoke. Great it was true he was worthless all around. He never said a word to her as she stayed where she was. He knew what was wrong but saying it seemed like a excuse, or at least something she wouldn't understand. It wasn't like he could just snap his fingers and recover that half of himself, it was gone. Sure he had all the memories of everything they had been through... but that didn't help at all. Other then to make him think that she was better off leaving him for dead.

He wanted just to pull her back onto his lap and forget he had said anything stupid a few moments ago. Though that was easier said then done at the present time. Or at east so it would seem. He just needed his mind to work with him, hell he knew who she was.. they had been together twice already why the hell was this turning into a struggle of his own thoughts.

He knew what she wanted and what he wanted yet he couldn't force himself to move at all to pull her close again. The other half of his thoughts said keep his damned head down and just follow orders. Why would he do that now? He never did before and she never gave orders, not serious ones anyway. Thinking all of this through he finally let out a annoyed sigh before laying back on the bed from where he was sitting. Why was everything different! Was his life so controlled by the other half? Was everything then just because of the other blood.. maybe this was his true self and he would never regain any fighting ability or be able to please her like she wanted.