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Originally Posted by Gallagher
I'm not pissed. And as I've said before, I don't get mad. I'm not trying to do anything to you. The only times I have asked you to do something differently is when your behavior upsets me as well, and I've tried explaining to you why it is that it upsets me when it does happen so that you understand. All I've wanted is for you to listen and try to see things the way I see them as well, but half of the time you hardly even acknowledge me when I try.
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well it really seems as though you are mad at me. and i didnt see what i said as something wrong. i was honestly just saying that becasue i didnt know! the thigns you care about and yell atme for really confuse me. i have to hold thigns back constantly!
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Originally Posted by Gallagher
I do not appreciate you assuming that you know how I, or anyone else, thinks about you.
I do not appreciate you insulting yourself like it's no big deal.
I do not appreciate you trying to change based on the assumptions you are making instead of listening to the honest worries that are presented to you.
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you guys keep making me feel so horrible. why wouldnt i change! im likea fucking puppy. always waiting for praise. i just want ot be LIKED i cant help it. im such a pathetic person!!!! im not awesome liek you guys are! i know it! i just want to be apart of the group and considered cool like you guys. but i know im far from it. i really shouldnt even try!!!
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Originally Posted by Gallagher
All of these things hurt and offend me. I don't know what it is that happened to make all of this start up so suddenly — because, yes, from this end it feels like it came out of the blue — but I have been trying hard as well, to help you and comfort you even when struggling with my own stability, or lackthereof.
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hurt and offend you?!?!!? you guys keep telling me how horrible i am!! nexxy said i was bragging about my rations and shit but guess what I WANTED TO KEEP YOU GUYS POSTED BECAUSE I WAS SAVING THEM NTO JUST FOR ME BUT FOR YOU GUYS AS WELL. IN CASE YOU DIDNT GET ENOUGH!!! im so stressed out right now. i jsut wanted to help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why ;-; why does this always happen to me. im jsut a crazy girl
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Originally Posted by Gallagher
I'm sorry that things have built up to this point. My honest hope is for us to talk things through properly and move on from where we are now.
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i really dont even know if i want to talk things though. you guys are constantly belittling me. i just dont feel welcome anymore. i feel like i have to step on toes just for you guys to talk to me. i dont know how to join conversations and i know you ignore my little posts. im not stupid. and im not trying to get attention.
sorry for all the "drama" but it will stop now. please dont ask me to come back unless you mean it. i really dont like being treated like a little kid. i really wanted you guys to like me so much.. im just not good enough for you guys. im annoying i know that. im selfish. yes. im stupid im a bragger i guess.
im sorry i had to say this stuff. i really do like you guys but i just had to stop this. you may not think you did anything wrong but you guys hurt me a lot. i wanted to surprise you and hopefully make you guys actually like me. well bye. sorry i caused so much drama and strife for you guys.
i just wanted to be friends.