[Tiva]

My father committed suicide before I turned 15. I understand taking guilt upon yourself because for the first two years after his death I blamed myself because the night before my parents had an arguement, my dad, who is an ex cop, drew a loaded gun at my mom waving it around drunk while I sat in my room scared, and the cops showed up because of the noise. I asked to go some where else for the night and I can't even remember the last words to my dad. He hung him self while my mother was in the shower the next morning, and I was at a friends house because I didn't want to look at my dad because of what he did.