i swear tae fucking GOD if i have to keep smelling cigarette smoke i'm gonna go focken FERAL. feral little bastard man coming through.

My dad quit smoking practically overnight bc my mom was pregnant w me and I super appreciate that

For the sheer volume of complaints I have about my parents, they’re not terrible people, but oh boy does Taiwanese culture not understand mental illness

actually just asian cultures as a whole

yeah, i've heard. it's not much better over in the UK. we don't really have the resources for that shit, either?

like, to get a therapist, you still have to pay. we're basically america-lite in that respect. but physical issues, you get treatment but have to pay for prescriptions, you know? (good thing the acne meds are like, 9£ odd.)

mate i gotta pay for therapist, psychiatrist, AND meds

because I have that motherfucker MTHFR gene defect which means something along the lines of SSRIs and SNRIs being only half as effective as they should be, so I neglect to take special methylfolate supplements for that

something something folic acid

at least the MTHFR defect I have only cuts efficiency to 50%; one of my friends has the version that cuts it to 10%.

oh jesus christ.

genetics are a fuckload of shit that i ought to learn about tbh.

Genetics is fun until you inherit a boatload of shit

also genes from your dad’s side which mean you’ll never have a particularly androgynous physical form

i mean, i got a bit lucky in the genetics department with being short + stocky.

and fairly hairy hjkhkj

thing is, i get awful amounts of acne.

Hah, I bet I’m shorter than you are.

Unfortunately I inherited a butt and thighs.

got glorious leggs.

They’re not even glorious haha

Long torso (for my size)

short leggy

leggys

i don't like having emotions very much.

Presumably if you get brain trauma in the area that controls emotions, you’d rid yourself of some of them? But obv you’re v likely to fuck a lot of other things up.

gestures in an excessively vague manner.

i do not like having emotions. i'm supposed to be happy for this person that is getting with their own crush and yet.

i'm supposed to be goddamn happy.

Ohhh, that. Yeah, that happens.

happens too often.

part of you can be happy for them and other part sad for you
if we could control our emotions rationally they wouldn't be

emotions