Trisphee - A genuine "Thank You"

Hey, so, I know Thanksgiving is like, more than weeks away, but I thought I’d just be early with the thankfulness vibes. (just so I don’t gotta do it later, and also because I feel like it right now.) >->
Just felt like expressing my gratefulness for having found a new avi forum site community to be a part of again. <:] It means more to me than I initially felt. I still feel alone, and stuck, and ashamed, and worthless at times, but…

Coming onto this site..and posting every day I can..interacting with all of you...dressing up avis...and above all, finding some place to be my goofy guppy self again, feels really endearing.
Back in 2008, I was first introduced to my first avatar community (Kinsaki) that I regularly went online to chat and roleplay with my new friends on, away from school. We played games for KP, played forum games, customized our profile videos and pictures, and commented funny jokes back and forth, made cute signatures, raised dragons and fish, and roleplayed when we could. I was young, and I was innocent, while also being in the middle of a huge Pirate Phase. X}
I was known as WaterGurl999 on there, and my mule account I made upon returning years later, was WaterMantisPrince. I never saw my friends come back online, although I waited for them to be online, until the site was sold and was terminated. :[ I checked Solia, since I lingered on there too, but...no luck.

I guess life takes over, and there was no need to stick around online anymore I suppose...so shall my life likewise proceed, but I hope to remain on here for years to come. <:]
I found this site, when I looked up, and quite literally googled, Best Avatar Forum Sites. I came across a few I checked out a bit, but others were so slow and cluttered with ads, pop ups and maybe malware. I then found Trisphee in that December of 2018, and it seemed relatively nice. Small, and not as active, but that’s just how I liked it. I hoped I wouldn’t be jumping into a dying avi site, but ultimately decided to take the jump. I was a part of an ace site, called Acebook, and it sort of functions as a dating site, :/ or something, so I just left my Ace rants there, and left to find some other place. I had remembered Kinsaki, and so that’s when I wanted to look for another place like it. But…

I had never been on the site to talk to anyone really, except the friends I went to school with. Interacting online with a group of strangers sounded a little risky to me, and I didn’t want to attract the wrong sort of attention. I was brave enough to take that risk though. I felt the loneliness was too great I guess. Up until then, when I wanted just to rant to and be silly around, I did so on other sites and apps, and soon got annoyed and bummed out with the people on there until I regretted even putting myself out there in the first place. Then suddenly my loneliness wasn’t so bad. But it kept returning, and I felt stuck, lost, and unable to get anything off my mind unless I wrote it down in a private journal or through a poem...I missed expressing myself...and I missed being understood..

When I came here, I tried my best not to return to my default, little girl blue personality setting, and though I still feel that WaterGurl999 internally, I know I’ve changed. I’m more mature, less random, less cheery. I try to be thoughtful and kind, and sweet. I also try to break through the screen to slap a giggle into your face with my stupid posts and gifs. <w< One thing that hasn’t changed however, is my affinity for old emoji expressions in nearly every single one of my frickin’ sentences! xD

I’m very quiet irl, and never talk too loud, unless I must, but I am quite expressive when I want to be. I think I always have been. <:] And on here, it’s a good thing. I feel better for having the space and the opportunity to express myself and BE myself, more than I feel able to offline. I like that there are people here who are artists and writers like myself.

I don’t know all of you personally and entirely, and likewise, I might be kind of mysterious myself to you all. But all this year, I’ve witnessed this little online community play games together, share stories, give advice, offer tips, console, express opinion, blow off steam, comfort one another, show concern, help with homework, relate to one another, make each other laugh, make each other dance, offer thanks, express generosity, wish each other well, and support one another. It’s a refreshing thing to witness in a world so chock full of egocentric selfishness, unneighborly hostility, and rampant toxic behavior. <:{ And I hope all of you know, that though we are all suffering and we have our problems and our faults, and our pains and our fears, our scars and our guilts and struggles, that it’s made a little better, with how comforting and kind this little tiny nerdy-ass place on the internet is…

(Not to sound mean, but I hope this totally moved a bunch of you and made you cry a bit, because I’ve gotten pro at writing these by the way. <x’})

With that said, I just wanna say, well,
Thank you Trisphee. For helping me through my day, distracting me from homework, keeping me from more self-destructive behavior, connecting me to people from around the world, and making me smile again.
I now feel like I can start to salvage myself again. <:}
My missing pieces can come together, and I can regain what I’ve lost.
I feel like I’ve lost a lot of myself.
I mean look at me, 8/ I’m a skinny corpse with cybernetic limbs n’ stuff!
(But not really of course.) x}

So Trisphee, -u- you really don’t have to know, and you probably don’t even care, but, as a show of gratitude…