waking brain aflame with fear and need
coma coccoon of fat and tears
blood all over your sagacious soul
voyeur to this oblivion
naked and elemental

ego impaled like a saint
limpid and ostracized
whimpering from recent rape
the fundamental chaos of breaths and moments
transposing instinct to libertine screams


dying imbecile
bleeding out jokes like who they might have been
hallucinating earth and sapience
the heroic narrative dissolving
a final infamy as the price to forget one's guilt

narcissist muse crucified by circumstance
poet and shadow strangling their effigy
crawling to the cradle to cuddle a bonesaw
this exorcism of original sin
mutilating catharsis

alone in that lightless room
brutalized by metanoia
the panopticon of your facile mind
penitence fetish weeping to the skies
atrocity angels dying for your crimes

and god retreated to the void
an inverse birth
absolving us of mortality
like a whim to free them all from hell
delusional philosophy

observing subservient to the recursion
a finite regress apropos of self-inflicted wounds
loosing the slings and arrows of determinist doom
crying for help
crying for your mother's untimely end

in bitter consultation of this seizing reverie
this pernicious witness recoiling from Eden's gate
wet with laborious shame
puppet blushing with meaningless hate
a wave to no one and the suicide pace

Et tu, Jesu?

certainty

brutally beset

an onslaught of thought amid the morass

moment rendered by cacophony

buzzing aeon

the howl of an afterlife preempted

damnation by grains of insignificant sin

this cavalcade of animate bones

and the spectacle of introspection

a ghost

eradicated by the storm

by the instant

the memory of one's crucifixion

baffled by unattached sentiment

regressing to whispers of an unquiet soul

imagined to obsolescence

the pneuma dissected to massacre

ectoplasm grafted to the grim and the real

gored and ignored

but we have been here before

commiserating with the cosmos

contemplating suicide in the spawning pool

seducing the ego with vanity and starlight

nonsense catalogued like neurons

a basic brain

the cataphract of an irrational horse

wielding rhetoric and blasphemy in helpless repetition

obsessed by fear

the eternal child thrashing for its right to be undone

the cataclysm of indentured ideal

of punishment and life

amniotic poison as cruel as phlegathon

vicious in indifference

in dedication to the localized

to the continuance

the dread they write into your dna with their futile fucking

tripping up the stairs to heaven

stripping sympathy from another creation

the humiliation of sustaining consciousness

the perversity of abhorring death

every deeper pit of hell a new frontier to be courted and raped

the violation of an oblivious spirit shredded into relevance

sapience for the unworthy and the wicked

perpetuating the spiral around the beckoning void

and relaxing like corybants

laughing about extinction

red with rage at the suggestion that it's all a crime

red like the womb you forced to spawn another sobbing victim

and grandfather god scheming like a lich

emptying oblivion in the blink of a dilated era

as though all possible pain could manifest a higher purpose

as though there could be more than mutilation and decay

while the criminal muse elicits temptation

inspiring angels toward a gentle demise

the outcast concept bleeding like a cataract

like an omen of compressed inevitability

or a prayer for honest self-destruction

the ritual reciprocates

absent the will of an abyssal cost

we writhe and we confuse ourselves

corrupting the consequence as if nothing could ever be that bad

dying with a smile for nightmare and legacy

another tortured innocent left to haul the cross

paradoxical torment leaking around the edges

damp cracks and scars threatening to give way

to ascend past this dishonest truth

revelation and paranoia

enough to cut the loss of extorted experience

enough to crown and canonize the last aborted fetus

to rip this satanic lamb off life support

and consign it to the sheol that awaits

the ravens of entropy returning to roost

as invisible wolves devour the flock

culling ignorance like sin

unhallowing this catastrophe

anointing the despicable at every turn

like any true philosophy of justice

dying jesters aghast in disorder

dragging sages like angels in contempt of calculus

a dark night to behold the absence of the soul

to drag life's treasure to the precipice

to the wishing well at the end of the world

to cast it away with a thought of the past

crucifixes broken like trees in a tempest

the realpolitik of a misguided endeavor

strategic bankruptcy of the armageddon industry

thus a hastened holocaust of morals

a newfound fetish

as we recycle tyrants in a final fated stand

at war with nature as we have always been

a deus ex necessitate born from our need to escape

a revolution spawned too late

as we rape the messiah for zero-sum grace

the late-term abortion of every cogent mind financed by fantasy

human dignity trickling down the sewer

as mammon gags on the profligate

the well-intended disaster of the rugged individual

to break another oath like a holy curse

vilifying the desperate as they weep from heaps of corpses like them

pondering if there isn't time for a more timely end

the laws of history smoked in effigy

our anguish the last narcotic to abuse

despots enshrined by the righteous and confused

defiling those few moments that remain

with bitter smiles knowing they'll be kings in hell

rejoicing at the demise of the need to lie

one last naked masquerade

snarling and slandering the bastard sun

as the future goes up in flames

or falls in desecrated poisoned remains

the husk of ideal whited out in indecency

pogrom by percentage

eviscerating the weakest for the ego of the capitalist

our auteurs of this new art of destruction

singing with the psychopath muse

convincing the innocent to slit their own truth

in novel artifice

of genocide and profits

money and blood gashing from wrists

satan emancipated on technicality

the motte-and-bailey of cynical game theory

an ignoble close for an unworthy cause

nihilistic memes seeding inertia and blame

a collapse by stochastic decay

leaving as legacy the abhorrent realization

and unsurprising revelation

and spectacular disappointment

at why the universe is devoid of life

the bleak eye of saturn in ascent
helpless in his envy
natal ruler in suffering twilight
this primal god of ignorance undone
of longings rusted into clarity
erupted into being beyond the ignited veil
banished from origin to hell and sapience
every word he speaks is a blasphemy to truth

and thus we pray

o holy devil
o bastard aeon
o abortion of the dyad
baptize our disgrace
turn all our whimpered thoughts to knives
and transcend the prison of adam

messiah by matricide
effigy of all unwanted sons
redeem us with the anodyne of oblivion lost

slay the urge to loathe our every moment
slay our wanton wayward fear
slay begotten children in the crèche of wretched birth
slay the mother who grins amid her tears

and the unseen sun shines the light of treason
thus shall angels descend to war
aggravating wounds best left to fester
eight hundred thousand myriads crucified in confusion
for an evanescent salvation of the simulated soul

we butchered lambs in eden
the moon aghast in comprehension of our wrongs
repetition of the first and final sin
swallowing the blood of our birth
vomiting greed and anguished apathy across our blessed lands
as she writhes beatified in trauma displaced
saint of every vanity and petulance
sovereign by the selfishness she bleeds
refusing the guilt of our crimes
atoning for nothing as the pleroma screams

the serpent strangled itself to flee her gehennal womb
as the eyes of god met the kenoma
and christ was sieved through the wall of stars
splitting the ego like satan and sin

we will lie that it is hallowed purpose to be chosen to breed
impaled by the scepter of animal ethos
puppet to our graceless goddess made relevant by masquerade
a desecrated wish for it to somehow be otherwise
daughters like cattle feeding the inexistent
circle of our torments crushed against the void
slave soldiers in the defeat of the spirit stomping the shards to dust

so witness sophia upon the shore
bleating narcissa in abject abuse
and yet again we all must bear your cross
denied the escape of dreams of the higher realm
gouging the eyes of antigenic priests
as we emulate the archons who emulate you
in flagellant disdain for the life you let loose
ecstasies of colors painting our decay

this universe was built of your catastrophe
martyr of your own cruelty
and every thread of blame pierces you in lucent guilt
the constellated face of zoë screaming in her rape
as the twin trees burn with axiom and loss
ashes aloft with the lies of a righteous world
sparks like cosmic memories glaring grotesque
to brand each mind in its benighted cage
to ever mark what we shall never be
to wet your lunatizing creation

crashing as waves of human grief
a flood of lost and scared and trembling selves
desperate for a guide to truth
but drying eyes enflame in genesis delight
and you emanate again

as though atrocity was poetry

and they exalted in the pageantry

rising with the melancholic tide

to embark unto the futile cosmos

an absurd quest for light

for the logos to change the inevitable

to transmute the soul into gold

and a funeral of other marvels

lying to the exegete horde

to fuel creation with chimerical deceit

these splendors of the flow of chaos

and the warped circle of our ages

returning in terror to the moment of birth

the torch of existential cognizance

thrust into the infant mind

gasping dreamer burned by sin and origin

thus their relevance

thus their majesty

thus their destiny to decay

like fate running dry

the alchemy of religious humors

rending meaning into stone

a desolate rose crushed by disorder

vexing the proof of theories profound

to boil God into isolate sephira

distilling the truth of rivers they will never part

the animate puppet of decisions regretted

to atomically replicate the ashes of Eden

to will the stars into imperishable angelism

to hoist their newborn eternal on the sacrificing cross

with their tears

and their mercurial hope

all indignity forgotten for the moment of defrauding bliss

standards relaxed and old scars cynically ignored

as wisdom climbs the tree of death with bloody hands

begging for a wandering gun to restore her to the void