ITS ALREADY IN MY BRAIN, MAN!

Already marked its scent!

I'm recoloring. xD; It needed it. SO badly.

And I guess I could do them tomorrow.. its already midnight, and, I STILL need to shower and shave my legs and.. other things. xD

-shifty glances-

You can do it.

And are you really that sensitive to smell? You should get a job in that.

Lmfao.

I just have ... really.. I dont even know.

I need to re-color my hair so bad. SO BAD. But my mom won't let me. She's forbidden me from dyes among everything.

We're watching the new Ghost Adventures recording tonight. :]

I need see the light.

*Decorates Batty's thread with Halloween swag, shifty eyes*

You probably have more important stuff on your mind then.

Rose; Congrats! :]

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And October's gonna explode all over this thread. If Batty (and me as a helper because October's my favorite month as well as Halloween) have anything to say about it.

I'm thinking of doing a special free October/Halloween art give away thing too. :)

So signing paper work? And that's still amazing as hell. :) So congrats either way. And there's nothing wrong with waiting for the ceremony and fancy stuff.

Aaaw. I didn't realize you got to do all that jazz too. :) That's awesome.

What are ya'll wanting for your wedding then?

I wish more people were on right now because I found the greatest thing on tumblr for tumblr people.
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Rose; That sounds gorgeous as all hell. :] I'm personally a fan of, well, personal weddings. Not inviting everyone under the sun that might've shook your hand. I bet it'll be beautiful. Especially if you have time to really plan it out before the date but still knowing you've already got the result down.

I agree with you on the fall thing. (Well, depending on where you are in the world, haha.)

So tired - freaking cold.

Cute avi Faux. :3

And I have the perfect solution for both of those. Curl up in bed! :]

So, Harlot and I are possibly hosting an event for the thread...

O:

That sounds like fun! :3

What would be the event be about or is it secret?

Fuck. Men. Or specifically fuck the guys that, fuck.

Went to the party last night even tho' I was tired and in pain. The best conversation with this one guy. He had a girlfriend. Get back to our place and continue this great political conversation. Sarah tells me he's hitting on me hardcore. I say nah he mentioned earlier he has a girlfriend. Sarah goes to bed. The guy kisses me. Fuckin' phenomenal. And I ground it into his head "girlfriend" and he told me they're not actually dating, and even if they were some conversation they just had would've nixed that. So we keep going. This guy is "so into me" he rips my panties. RIPS. Like holy fuck. One of the hottest things ever. But I won't fuck him without a condom a and in Sarah's apartment b (even if the flirting and everything was with her blessing). I don't know how hammered this guy was but he gives me the wrong apartment number twice. He catches me on my way down. Invites me in and tells me all these awesome things about how perfect I am but he DOES have a girlfriend. I ask for a smoke and going to go have it, he goes "Actually, you should probably leave." So I do.

What the actual fuck and feeling like a cheap whore. I asked every question, went through all of my protocols and then this? Why do I apparently attract unavailable men?

Go check out the event thread post, on the front page, everyone!

Harlot;; Holy SHIT. And you didn't kick his fucking groin in?

Hell yeah! :) October event. Hope people participate! I have an art thread in the art forum if you want to check out my work. (Not that you should need an incentive to be active in the forum.)

Battybby; I was too busy bawling my eyes out for a few hours once I got back to Sarah's. I'm a tough girl. I can handle shit I don't mind one night stands. But don't play me off. I was so... humiliated. I haven't stopped drinking yet. Slept for awhile and then woke up and had a kick back. He asked me to write down my number so I found some sticky note pack, he was so excited (other than the panty ripping) that he pulled my shirt up and off to where they landed on the floor and broke apart. I told Sarah that and she picked up the pieces from the floor so I wouldn't have to look at them.

Just. Argh. I feel, awful as hell. Sarah's made me feel a bit better. She could tell he was up my ass from when we started talking. And from the rest of it her positive spin on it was he couldn't help being so attracted to me. So that made me feel a little better. But. Argh. I just. I have been just about celibate for a year. And he was clever and smart. And attractive. And a guy that was into me. He kissed me and I ground into his head "GIRLFRIEND GIRLFRIEND GIRLFRIEND". But he said they weren't actually dating. And then end of the night "you should leave I have a girlfriend." Just. FUCK. Why does this always happen to me?

Harlotbby;;

Oh, babe.. why didn't you text me? I would have given you the best text message lesbian sex EVER. But no, seriously.. what a fucking ASSHAT. I.. I'm appalled. I mean, shit. I didn't think men could get any worse...

And if theres anything you wanna add to the post, lemme know <3

Bby; I didn't really think about anything. Originally I wasn't going to tell anyone. Like. He said shit and I said "Ok, can I at least have a smoke 'cause you were a DB" and I was going to the balcony to have the smoke and he goes "actually you should leave" so I just left. And I walked around Sarah's apartment and searched for shorts in the ash trays 'cause he'd smoked a ton of ours so we were out. And I was gonna do something bad so I woke Sarah up and told her and just bawled for 2-3 hrs. I couldn't think. I couldn't. Anything. I actually told Sarah when she was driving me to get smokes a few hours ago that "I'm just waiting for her to get online. I want to talk to her because she makes me feel loved. I need her right now."

I'm just. Ashamed. I fuckin' blew him (apparently I give better head than his girlfriend). He got off I didn't. And was all gungho on fucking but I WILL NOT HAVE SEX without a CONDOM. I won't do it. I've had two miscarriages I won't go through that shit anymore. No. And I won't fuck on the couch of someone else's place. I won't do it. NO. And just everything went downhill from there. Just. ARGH. He told me I was the smartest, most brilliant woman he had ever met, and if he wasn't with her he'd be all over me. BUT WTF. HOW DARE YOU, give me the wrong apartment number twice. I knocked on a strangers door in my "night time" clothes. He opened the door when I was halfway down the stairs and invited me in. I told him "You're a DB" and he asked "well why are you still here" and I told him because I wanted to give him a chance to prove that he was better than that and just drunk, and he kept going with the compliments, I asked for a smoke and then walking to the balcony he goes "you should leave." Sarah says it's because he would not be able to stop himself from hitting on me and trying to fuck me so that's the silver lining but.

FUCK. I'm not FIVE. I have been nothing but honest and straightforward the entire night. I knew he had a girlfriend but I thought he was just being friendly. Then he kept touching my leg and knee and when Sarah walked off sprang in and was all over me and my lips. And I pushed him back and said "GIRLFRIEND" and I told him about my first love cheating on me with my best friend, being abused by guys, and fucking one guy and a year later having his new girlfriend ruin my working life because she was so insecure. And he still kept going.

And no; your rules are perfect!! The only thing I'd add is unless I'm otherwise incapable, min. 1 art piece a week. Pref. 2 but at least one.

Goddamn.. I wanna bash the fuckers head in. And he lives in Sarah's apartment complex?

I don't even. UGH. People like that... Holy Gods. I'm so sorry, baby. Is there anything I can do? =[

Her upstairs neighbor. Our balcony is right below his. ): So I'll have a daily reminder. Just fuck.

Just say nice things about me. <3 And be you the way you always are. You always make my mood go up so. :] I just, I want to stop feeling so cheap even tho' technically I have no reason to. I cleared EVERYTHING before I let him kiss me again. So I did my part. But this is the first time I've trusted "Hey, maybe I am actually attractive and he wants fun things". The first time in a year I've given it a chance. And this is what happens? Hell, I told him I'd been abused by men so he had to be sure of his intentions. And then... fuck. Sending me to the wrong apartment? His across the hall neighbor. Knocked on the door, no answer, so did a softer knock and then decided "fuck this" and then heard his door open and just fuck. Can't you be god damn honest with me? I am so.... humiliated right now. I feel so stupid for standing there in my PJ's knocking on a strangers door. And I have social anxiety disorder.

But yeah, just be your loving self. You make me smile.

Don't be, love. He was the one who fucked up. You did NOTHING wrong. You were led on, and that IS NOT your fault. Some guys think they can get away with anything, as long as they whisper sweet nothings. You ARE a smart, intelligent girl, and I'm just glad things stopped where they did.

After he had seen he wasn't getting what he wanted, he went the douchebag route. I'm so fuckin' sorry that had to happen to YOU, of all people. But you're better than him, and MUCH MUCH worth a hell of a lot more.

hey! battey! *glomps*


and oh my, what a real douche.

Harlot - Sorry to hear about your rotten luck with the male species last night. If it makes you feel any better, from just reading over that, I would say that you are a knock out, and he thought he could have a chance at you, but when he realized that you have, oh I don't know STANDARDS. xD
You are worth more then a bar night / party night hook up any way. Regardless of how hot the pantie ripping was.
Have a shot for me, take a hot shower and put on something pretty today. Prolly make you feel better :3

Batty - Hey girly! Haven't talked to you in forever....

Batybby; Haha, I rarely admit to it but I'm crying right now. Thank you. Thank you so much. I really needed to hear that. So bad. 'Cause I feel like dirt. And I just. -holds you really close- I tried to be so careful, obsessively so.

Me of all people? Haha. <3 Thank you. I just feel like I should've known better than to trust, ya know? Like, I refused to be another "notch on his belt", I've finally started to maybe believe in self worth a little bit. And it got me punched in the gut.

Especially with social anxiety disorder. Even when I've been to a persons house thousands of time someone else has to lead the way and knock on the door because I am TERRIFIED of it being the wrong door. And he leads me there on purpose? I am just. God. I'm a fucking idiot.

Kira;; HAY THERE, YOU! How you be?

Harlotbby;; Its the fucking truth. YOU. ARE. WORTH. MORE. Know what you need to do? Go take a bath. Light some candles. Listen to your soothing jazz music, and relish in YOU time. He's an idiot, who probably doesn't know his dick head, from his brain, and deserves a serious beatdown. Honestly, you did everything right, in the situation you were in. You're not dirt, you're amazing. And you ALWAYS will be. Just don't let the ass get to you.

*Peaks in* Am I welcome in here?

God. Thank you. Just. Thank you. So much. I don't have a lot of brain left right now. I was wearing my favorite pj shirt thing too. So, arhg! Haha. Sucks. And I don't know if I'm a knock out but that's what I hope his actions mean. Just too damn fancy, d:

You made me smile tho', thank you. And you know what, I will take that shot -after I get this post done- and put make up on and I don't have a lot of clothing at my friends house but I'll get dressed in the best I have over here. Sounds like a good idea.

I have a feeling that his female came home early or wasn't supposed to be there at all, so he had to act all "Well this drunk girl followed me home babe" or something. He more then likely really, REALLY wanted you to stay but he didn't want his girlfriend taking his balls for a joy ride.

I'm sorry to hear that happened Helsinki Harlot... I hope bad things happen to this guy for what he did to you. He deserves it.

Course you are, Gozed.

And nahh, Kira. I don't think that was it. I honestly think, after he realized what kind of brains Harlotbby has, he decided he didn't want to get involved with that. Which is a douche-bag move. He wasn't gettin her on the hook that easily, so, figured it wasn't worth his time.

And for the better, too. Cause you know what? HIS FUCKING LOSS. I'd KILL to spend a night with this chick. KILL! xD;