honestly never did .. probably why i didn't come on much..

-Begins to snore quietly-

-sips from his glass of water- not like it matters, only reason i'm still here is choco convinced me to stay..

-Rolls onto my side facing the couch-

man i wish my headache would go away..

-cuddles the panda bear-

then again i probably deserve that too according to some people -rubs his forehead wincing a bit-

-Nuzzles the bear-

i just hope my interview on tuesday goes well i really don't want to lose my only source of income.. -sighs softly- it's just one thing after another lately..

-Rolls back over onto my belly- -o-

-flops onto his back on the floor- happy mother's day to me.. first one.. heh.. -covers his eyes with his left arm- as if it's a happy one..

-rolls off the couch-
-o-

damnit i can't do it i just freaking can't!

i want to make choco happy but there's no way i can stay in this place... i can't even stand to look at myself why should i make other's bother talking to me..

months of recovery gone in a matter of hours..

-Wakes up and stares at the man- o.o

-hugs his knees to his chest trying to hide his face while trembling- useless.. useless..

-Crawls up to him and hands him my bear-
o.o

-winces as the other gets close hugging his knees tighter, tail wrapping around himself as his ears droop- why can't i forget.. i..i forget everything else why can't i just forget what was said... i only ...i...i just.. -he couldn't stop trembling, glasses slipping from his face as he began to cry silently while keeping his face hidden-

-i set my bear next to the sad man and get back onto the couch to stare at him- o.o

-remains silent,trembling and crying while tightly hugging his knees-

-Gets off the couch and moves the bear to his feet-

everyone would be better off if i never existed...


-keeps hugging his knees looking downward-

-Moves the bear to his arms and brushes up against him- o.o

-whimpers unable to stop crying-

-Paws at the sad man while still trying to hand him the bear-

i..i just w..wanted to g..get better s..so he wouldn't ... -ears droop down- but i can't even do that right i can't do anything right..

-Stands and hugs him. I slide the besr between his arms.-

-whimpers loosely holding the bear unable to stop trembling- w..worthless...b..better off d..dead ... c..can't even p..properly sh...show how much i..i l..love s.someone..

-brushes up against him- o.o

-winces a bit-

-Nuzzles his leg- o.o

i..i just wanted to prove i could do something r..right for once..

-paws at him- o.o

i want my stuff back.. u.u

i....i want everything back how it was -covers his face-

-Rolls toward cosette-

-pets cossette- hi

Celebrating mums day with your mum?