A bunch of shit.
My boyfriend was being a real asshole last night and earlier.
Still kinda is. Said sorry but sorry can only make things a little better, idk. Doesn't excuse his fucking behaviour.

I don't know.
I want to demand shit. Like flowers, chocolate, the bear that he's been saying that he would get be for TWO MONTHS ( a late birthday present ) and dinner. But I'm not about to make myself look like a selfish bitch.
Though I think that I deserve that shit.

He doesn't even really get me shit like that.
Flower, chocolate and doesn't take me out for dinners. :s
And I hate suggestion it or hinting that he should do something romantic. Then I expect it and it's lame.

And it isn't like I expect my boyfriend to get me shit all the time.
Or to be super romantic and to always be romantic. It would just be nice if he did something for me every now and then. I get him lunch a lot, etc.

Well, he can be quite insensitive to situations that I have with my family, etc.
Also, it's like ever since I turned eighteen he always uses the "you're eighteen, you're an adult" crap. As if being eighteen suddenly makes my family problems disappear and being eighteen makes everything better. He tells me to grow up and get over things, but not even in a polite way. He's been really fucking rude to me.
And he always tells me to ignore my family and their stupidity, but that's kinda hard when I live with them and spend days at my house. He also just can't understand how I can get frustrated with things because he wouldn't get frustrated. Probably because his family isn't like mine. He doesn't even seem to try to change, to be more sensitive and to not be mean when I'm complaining/looking for some comfort from him. It pisses me off. He doesn't know how to comfort me. He doesn't really seem to try to understand my situations either. Though he tells me that he does.

Anyways.
Last night we argued a bit.
Then he said a bunch of really hurtful things. "It's almost like we're not compatible anymore, sometimes I just want to ignore you and not care because I'm not interested in talking to you when you're upset." And a bunch of other shit, too. I don't have my cellphone so I can't whip it out and type every text that he sent me. He also said that he was becoming less and less happier with me.
He apologized and said that he was ashamed of what he said and that he loved me, but... idk. He said he was upset and all of that just came out. But I really don't know how to feel, think or what to say to him.

I'm really hurt. I think that we are compatible. Just because we have an argue maybe once or twice a month doesn't mean that there's something wrong with our relationship. Couples fight, it's completely fucking normal. We use to argue a lot, it was way worse, but that stopped and I've been really happy with him. I don't know why he would even allow himself to think and say that. :/

Well you can give me advice if you want, I don't mind.
I'm just venting because I'm really frustrated right now.

Yeah actually. Same for the being not compatible thing.
But not the whole becoming less and less happy with me.
He's said that maybe twice.

Not to my knowledge. He would tell me if he was facing issues. He does work a lot 40 - 50 hours a week. At one point he did 60 hours. Maybe working a lot has stressed him out? Still doesn't give him a right to treat like like shit last night and earlier today.

To be honest, his life is good as far as I know.
He had a really good job, gets well paid. He had a lot of close friends. He recently got his dream car back and has lost weight too and gained muscle. Plus we stopped having constant fights that were pretty ridiculous. I don't know. :/

Oh I've told him all of this.
A lot. More than twice or three times at least.
And he has this whole "oh that's in the past, it's unnecessary to talk about it" crap.

Anyways.

>__>

I'm going to get off and do something else to distract myself.