yeah, you're right. but i'm sorry you had to witness that.

Don't be sorry. <:] Wasn' your fault.
Just be glad you aren't in California. <xD (because it's burning. o_o;)

i'm still apologizing. i'm sorry you had to see it, and i hope it never happens again

and yeah, that's just insane out there in california, oregon, and washington :(

0n0 Oregon has it the worst I think! The air quality is so bad up there, it was reported it's currently the worst in the world right now.
>~> So Cal less so, but, it's still pretty bad.

And the flippin' dumbass president is visiting today apparently, x'D to tell all of California how much he feels for the families sufferings and that its the forest ranger's fault for not sweeping the leaves from the forests so they don't burn-!bahahaaha! I'm sorry! I can't say all that with a straight face! OMG.
/=U=,\; Ahhh, meanwhile in Australia, my next forever home, like, 5 deaths of the virus and 17 cases have come up in the past week. ;u; </3 I'm in the wrong part of the world...

i know, right? he comes up with and says the most ludicrous things at times, and i never know whether to be pissed off or laugh.

Derpy waddles over and hugs your ankle.
"Stay safe pwease!" He looks very worried.

<:]
Aw. Don't worry Derpy, I always try my best to stay super safe.
^-^
I always leave home with my mask on and I make sure to stay inside as much as I can. :) Plus I always keep informed with any new fire news.

O.O Poor Northern California tho! I thought we were having our usual summer, but Northern Cali, where my nina lives, hardly sees any fire season, and they are having the worst smoke and fire in 30 years!

California is on fire and so are my dreams. :c Sigh. So yeah, it sucks.

i now have a grown man stalking me, smokey still hasn't come back, and i'm grieving the possibilities that i could have had if i managed to stay in school. and everything's on fire, which is the usual for this part of the year, but what's not usual is the amount of stuff being on fire.

My inner Aries: >8D In other news---> FIIIIRRRREEE!
Me: <xC Noooooo!
My inner Aries: >8DD Coming up Next---> EXPLOSIONNNNS!!!
Me: <XO NooooOOOOO!!!

I need to stop being afraid of confrontation.

Kinda hating how the guy in charge of handling rentals never calls them to confirm stuff until the last minute.

Ex: We have a wedding rental on Friday. They're coming in to decorate tomorrow at 9am. So yesterday I ask about the layout so I can get stuff set up and can get started on ironing the linens because that takes forever (and because it was the only day when I don't have to work my other job so I can stay and actually do stuff) and he says "oh they decided they wanted to have their hallway syuff moved down to the main floor so I actually need to find out about that before you set anything up."
Like....if he had just taken care of that earlier, I could have taken care of 90% of everything yesterday. Instead, I got the secon floor rooms set up with tables, but not chairs, and managed to iron 5 out of 15-20 linens. And will have zero time to do anything before they arrive tomorrow because I don't get in until 8:30, have actual cleaning to do, and have a meeting from 9-10am.
*facepalm*

In other news: I regret not having any friends who do makeup because a nice red and black eye look would really add a lot to my eye look but idk if I have enough time to figure it out myself before Halloween (because I'd need to buy literally everything for it which I really can't afford to do until middle of next month).
Also need to figure out how the eff I'm supposed to wear my elf/pixie ears. I tried figuring them out when they arrived (after cleaning them), but I can't seem to figure it out.

Tl;dr: I forgot how much dressing up for Halloween stresses me out because I want my costume/outfit to be perfect.

<:c I'm sad. I have work tomorrow again.
<:'C I'm sad because nobody will text me back...
<x'C I'm sad because I don't want my period to come back.

I'm also extremely worried about my brother! <8'C Where the HELL is he????
<x'{ Dammit! he said he was coming home at 6!! It's 9!!! 8( What is he doing?!
<X'( I'm WORRIED! </3

Edit: He's home now. I feel better. -.- <3
...still sad tho. /:c

:C I usually get sad around my period too, and it sucks.
*hugs*

Last month was the worst I think though.

i usually just get annoyed at my period. i try not to let it bother my life. but i have a monthly headache that moves around - sometimes it's my 24-hour warning that sometime in the next 24 hours i'll get my period. sometimes - and i think it's this way now, has been for a few months - the headache is the same time as my period. they're both nuisances this month. *sigh*

*goes on break at work*
*checks the time so I know when break is over*
4:04
*giggles to self*
4:04 Error: break not found.

XD
I need help.

My tea says, "Steep for three to five minutes, or until you achieve the desired strength."

So that's the trick to muscle gains, right?

0-0; Holy sh*t.
E-earthquake!
4.6 near El Monte and Rosemead.
<x] Obviously the end is in sight. X{ It's not enough that everything is on FIRE, now the EARTH has to freak out for 10 seconds!
Not strong enough to break anything, but it woke me up. =-=; ugh...great. I was drooling too, so I was having a really good snooze. ;-; Now I'm just awake and wondering when the aftershocks will happen...
Anyone else from So Cal feel it, or sleep through it?? :/

My sister felt it. And so many others I know who live in SoCal.

Woohoo! The core items of my Halloween costume have arrived and so far they all fit and look good. I just want to make a few minor changes. Mainly swapping out the cheap, gold buttons on the dress for higher quality buttons in either a black or silver and maybe also seeing if I can find some good faux leather cording to swap out the cheaper lacings on the dress and mock-underbust corset.

I finally know what I'm wearing for Halloween, I just need to make it. XD

Still need to figure out what Derpy's gonna be for Halloween so I can make it. XD

I, too, felt the earthquake!!!

I am really getting worried of these earthquakes..
They RUIN my nights and my days and I am always paranoid when the next one will hit and if it will be the "Big One"...

=~=; The Big One is overdue. It's not gonna be like the San Andreas movie, but it would be pretty devastating.
Only 2020 could have that scheduled for the itinerary of the year.

Don't worry Ava. <:} I know it's super scary, but all of the buildings have rollers to keep from collapsing totally. :) Luckily not too many deaths happen from a direct quake. <:/ But from the hazards it causes, like fires or gas or electrical dangers. It's ALWAYS good to have an emergency plan in mind, to ease any anxiety.

Actual shout: I'm glad my period didn't really destroy me this time. It's probably due to my healthier eating all week long. <:/ Though I had a major depressive episode lasting nearly all day. It's so weird how that happens. <X) Like, whaat? I'm bleeding, there's less painful cramping, no nausea this time, and BOOM. Instant emptiness and beating myself up internally to a pulp. ;u;??? Like, why?? Hormones???? I can't catch a break for one cycle even though I feel like I'm doing all the right things. XD Well, at least there wasn't a need for Midol this time around. Though I guess I'll now need to prepare for shower crying sessions. ;U; Should one occur again. Is it okay to text your friends when you feel like total sh*t? ;.; I feel like it's illegal. Like you're not supposed to do that, or you'll be fined with 60 days of absent contact...

I have never felt an earthquake before I've moved here. But it feels like my life is making up for all the years I've never felt an earthquake so now I feel like I feel them almost every day and I freak out a little each time. I am constantly checking online to see if anyone else felt anything too... Very rarely do I get any results though.

I've been trying to look up what to do during an earthquake and after. It's been a little less stress knowing what to do if ever there was a really bad earthquake.

My shout for today!:
I'm angry that time seems to be going so fast! It feels like I can't just sit and enjoy the season like I want to. >:/ I woke up one day and suddenly it was September.. Went to sleep and woke up and September is already more than halfway through!

A new coffee/local goods type of shop opened up and they have bike meet-ups every week which sounded awesome. But then I remembered how I make people uncomfortable and would rather just learn how to ride in traffic without having to interact with them. And then I remembered I still don't have a bike.

I've felt an earthquake once. >_> It was a bit sudden that's for sure.

yeah, that sounds about right!

My aunt and her boyfriend are coming to visit us here in Cali!
I'm so super excited to see them again. :D

But this means we have to do some SERIOUS cleaning to our apartment to make it fit enough for them to come in and stay with us for the week! >n<

It's so funny how much stuff I thought I lost, but was actually just hiding away in a wrongly labeled box. I'm excited for them to come and visit. I don't hate the cleaning up either! I love putting on a Spotify playlist and just going at it. c:

Random thought/Question floating around in my head ughh!
Have any of you wondered what happens when you die because i think that once you die your soul floats around in-tell someone puts you in the ground but the whole time your not in your body your just getting to see your past life like memories the good and the bad, but like, once your in the ground and people say they see that white light i wonder if that is just you opening your eyes in a new body and being someone completely different. IDK!!! How about y'all What you think?
:3

What do I think... hm.

I think now’s not the best time for the Tris community to think about that.
I think that’s an interesting concept.
I think it’s comforting.

I don’t believe in any sort of afterlife. Things might be easier if I did. But I don’t.

I would agree on part of what you are saying.

I recently got into the stock market, I don't think I'm doing to badly either.

Yet I can't remember how Mods work here so i feel kind of dumb, ha ha.

*facepalm*
Gotta love when the boss throws 3-5 different things at me and somehow expects me to get them all done at the same time...
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Like...how the hell am I supposed to magically clean our white linens, sweep flies, clean up a rental I had no knowledge of in the first place AND still do all my normal tasks all at the same time?!?
And then she gets mad if I don't get something done as quickly as she wants.
I am not paid enough for this...
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hm. been getting weird little red dots on my left arm.

either i'm slightly allergic to something; this is a symptom of COVID19; or it's measles; or my acne is now getting more fucked up.

they're not itchy or anything, but i did have some sort of strawberry and cream chocolate bar from hershy's.

might have to test it again to see if i get the same reaction. not feeling nauseous or anything, more towards the usual amount of slightly sucky after eating a chocolate bar fairly quickly, haha.

Having massive anxiety because I just realized that I left 2 plushie parts on the bed and they're unfinished and have loose strings... and Batty likes to chew on/eat yarn....
Please don't let him find it...please let him just stay in the living room while I'm at work...

No more health insurance. Not sure what I'll do once my gallbladder finally gives out. And now psych help is never going to be an option.

shit, is there anything we can do to help? i wouldn't mind doing commissions if you can handle the invoices bits of paypal.