Well, I had a super shitty night last night. My eyes were so swollen that I had no eyelids this morning and when you touched my eye area it was all swollen and puffy, it felt like squishing a marshmellow. My friend said I turned super asian overnight. I take a long shower to try and get them to not be swollen that bad and by the time I get out, my eyes are still fucked to all hell, it looked like I got hit in one eye now because the other one had eased up a little. I'm not even dry yet when my parents show up, there's no make-uping yourself new eyelids so I kinda have to deal with it.

So I kinda say hey and don't look them in the eye and get dressed. We were supposed to lock our rooms before they got here because they are a disaster. Instead the first thing my mom does while they wait for me is barge into my room and start commenting on it. (And I have a display above my bed that I put up there that has a handle of jager, a handle of jack, a huge wine battle, a champagne bottle, 3 different smaller whiskey bottles and empty beer bottles). I get out, start doing make up and my eye asks me what's wrong with my eyes, i told her allergies and she says she's taking me to the pharmacy later.

So I'm standing in the living room area getting ready to go when both of my parents start ragging on how fat I am (they're on a diet and lost a ton of weight) and my mom brought me "new" clothes for me to try and starts handing to me saying how cute they are but adding every time "but you can't fit into them right now. Once you start dieting you will tho', and you'll look good."

So we leave and the entire time there they're asking me about classes and school and start telling me how fat I am over dinner while we're eating a chili's. They start telling me that they want me to start living at home again and switch schools 'cause of money issues. Etc. etc. more awkward topics and I apparently let the cat out of the bag on my sisters two new tattoo's. My mom knew but wouldn't tell my dad. So he was a little miffed at that and I feel soooooooooo baaaaaaaaaaaaad. More commenting about my weight and how my pants sag. They take me to a pharmacy and my mother gets me a shit ton of vitamin things (amongst other good stuff) and it was just.... so painfully awkward. And my eyes still haven't un-swollen.

That...kinda really sucks. Unfortunately I'm reserving my pity for my rather undeserving and selfish...self, because I decided to put serious homework off until tonight.

Speaking of being busy, anyone got 1.5k they can lend me?

Oh my god, Nella. I'm so damn sorry.

I remember your parents being asshats [no offense] but you don't openly say crap like that about your kid to their face. Your body is your own, and hey, my opinion is you look DAMN good. I know I'm going to sound like a complete hypocrite here, but, WEIGHT DOES NOT DEFINE A PERSON. At all, what so ever. GOOD FOR THEM! THEY LOST WEIGHT! Doesn't mean they need to be pushing it at you, and shoving it down your throat.

I work out more than anyone I know in the world. But I don't push it on my sister, who, is thirteen years old, and weighs 195 pounds. I'll ask her if she wants to work out with me, or if she wants a salad for dinner. Sometimes I'll make a sly comment here and there when I see her over doing things [eating a whole family sized bag of potato chips, in two different servings IN ONE DAY? Uh, yeah.] But other than that, my lifestyle is my lifestyle. End of story, period.

Gods, I'm so sorry babe.

Your parents need to realize that you are not...them. Seriously, your life isn't theirs to be changed around without lots of prior notice, and they can't just do whatever...

Ehehe. Sagging pants. That reminds me, I need to get pants that actually fit me. They're such a poor fit right now that I could be pantsed in the middle of the quad in a blink of the eye.

...mein gott, Batterz, thanks so much. I just needed a second snakey ADI. Will pay you back when I can.

You're welcome, Espy. <3

And don't worry about it.
I'll probably be buying myself another one tomorrow too. xDDD;

Ah, do you have enough now?!

xD Enough of what? I ONLY HAS ONE NAGA!

Espy; That's all cool. <3 And I only have 500. lol I went on a shopping spree yesterday.
edit: Yeah, they have a tendency of falling off of me sometimes when I'm walking up stairs with heavy things and can't keep a hold on them. And they're obsessing about it more than usual (they've always told me I was fat and made fat jokes at me, my dad once told me to put food back on the tray that i'd put on my plate because fat people don't need that much food. It's an itty bitty less than palm size piece of fuckin' meat. =/ ) But they've been fat as hell for ages. Shit they used to eat fast food every day 'cause mom's too lazy to cook and dad rarely does either and when he does he bathes it in grease.

Batty; -loves- Yeah, went from shitty night, to shitty wake up, to shitty day, and now things are kinda all right. I'm just listening to music and enjoying a glass of whiskey. I wish my eyes would unwrinkle tho'.

And none taken. They've always kinda, I dunno. We've never quite seen eye to eye. It's gotten a bit better since I moved out. We talk a little more nowadays and I try more actively not to avoid them but then they do shit like this and wonder why I don't like visiting and stay upstairs in my room at home when I do visit.

Like, I'm not, I don't think I'm fat. Yeah I've gained a little pudge but that's because when I was at MY happy weight and size my mom told me that she told me I'd lost too much weight and if I was healthy and that I wasn't allowed to loose anymore weight and should gain some. I mean I'm a size 7, that's not bad imho. =/ she gave me a pair of pants that were a size 3 to fit into.

And thanks hun. <3 I appreciate that. ;D But bby I'm only hot 'cause you're looking. Haha.

Batterz, I meant, do you have enough Au now that you're 1.5k down?

-loves harder-

AND THATS ALSO WHY YOU CHILL OUT ON THE ROOF! xD <3 I remember that, too!

See, I'm not in that kind of situation. I more than get a long with my mom. hell, she's my best friend. She's never judged me, well, not since I was younger. She used to call me fat and shiz too. Playing around, yes, but it still affected me negatively, and now she has to deal with an anorexic daughter, who obsesses over calories, food, working out, and weight. I think I'm a size one or something like that-- last time I checked. They really don't let me get on scales anymore, because its gotten THAT bad.

I mean, when I'm bloated from PMS, I gain about 5-8 pounds of water weight and I FLIP BALLS. So horribly, I end up just about starving myself for that entire week, and push myself so hard by the end of week I crash. hard.

You should have texted me or something, and I would have made your day incredibly better. And I'm only lookin' cause YOU SO SEXY GIIRRRRLLLL! XDD

No, but seriously, thats just.. so messed up. ><;



Espybby;; I'm good, love! I just.. put things off till the last minute half the time. xDD; You didn't break me, no worries!

Batty; <3 Yup. Still my favorite place to have a cig.

That's good. The relationship with your mom that is. I think a lot of stuff would've gone better in my life if I could've talked to them about it. Like when Jon died, or hell any of my other friends who did. About my d-bag ex's, how people treated me at school etc. etc. But we don't do that in my family. Hell, I don't think my dad's ever told me he loved me unless I was like itty bitty and I don't remember it and growing up he made sure that I knew I was expendable and that I did not have to live in the family if I didn't like it. I'd like to be friends with my parents.

As long as you're taking care of yourself sweetheart. Not exactly the healthiest mindset but everyone has an obsessive vice. As long as I don't have to hear about you dyin' on me or getting so bad that you have be to taken to the hospital. -loves- I'd miss my girl dearly. And maybe find something else to obsess about to take your time off of it. (I did a little stint with that but my grandmothers home made cooking kinda killed it.)

I'm not allowed to be on my phone when I'm at dinner with my parents. <3 But thankee love. You make my little heart go pitter patter. :]

What have I missed?

Hola Asa. Your avi is bitchin'. And I'm just complaining about how family dinner went.

Thank you
I tried

Awuh I am truly sorry //hugs

Thats why I'm glad my sperm donor is MIA. Some men just aren't meant to be fathers. I'm just glad you still turned out as amazing as you did <33

I know some people with parents like that have come out severely mentally scarred, so much so, they're incapable of even loving another individual. -sighs- Sometimes I just wanna smack some people in the face. Or, in my case, kick them in the face. I'm much better at using my legs. ;]

But nyeeeh! I don't think I'll ever give myself another mindset. I'm stuck. I'm healthy, in a VERY unhealthy way. xDD;

BATTY IS THE ULTIMATE OXYMORON. <33

@-@what is going on

In other news: I just found a few avatars I had forgotten to put into my closet. xDD;

And they're badass. If I do say so myself.

Parents being dicks. And take a nap? Or well, I guess it's too late for a nap. Haha. -hugs back- <3

Batty; Yeah, some men aren't, I'd def. agree there. It's not all bad, just... a lot of it's bad. And it sucks because I love 'em a lot. I'd be nice to know that I always have a place to go back home to but I know I don't. lol

Yeah. Your parents are kinda the first thing that teaches you love. I mean I know it's affected me and I kinda see how in a lot of ways (me and Jon actually had a small talk about it one night because we were talking about how I interact with men and my major relationship issues. But you can't really pick your parents. You get popped into the world and you do your best and I'll always love them no matter what, because that's what family is supposed to do.

You're like that starburst commercial.


edit: Bad ass. o: I'm currently drumming up a wish list. :]

Wish lists are important

I just got back from working out guys! =D
*feels sore in a good way*

I'm the starbust commercial? WHAAA? xDD;

Asa; They are. I'm finally taking the time to go through all the items and figure out what I want to make my goals to get.

Spirit; Welcome back. And now I feel lazy. Haha.


EDIT: Contradiction Commercial

EDIT Contradiction #2!

I'm hungees.

-noms on Funk- MUSCLE IS GOOD FOR THE TUMMY.

Asami thinks contradictions don't existever. If something is there then its real not a contradiction o.o

AHAHAHAHA!

I found a picture of me. Sitting on the toilet. COMPLETELY CLOTHED, MIND YOU. JUST to show off my jack-o-lantern shirt.


OH My GOD I'M RETARDED. <3

We are all a little retarded at times batty :3

I'm not to much in it for the bulk. I'm in it to defeat a mountain...Mt. Midoriyama in Japan

Have fun with that funky o.o

I almost feel like posting it for a second. xD;

Doooo eeeet X3 lunch break yay

xD;;



Its only staying up for a little.
/le paranoid

hehe cute batty is cute =P

Oh, hush you! xDD;

I took that months ago, back in October.
/ was far too excited about that shirt

why do i have to hush =P but okie i will >w<

but its a cute shirt owo

Nuuu! You don't literally have too, silly! xD;

I just don't think I'm cute. THE SHIRT IS THOUGH.

Awuh batty is too cute

-hides under a rock-

NUH UH. ><; But she DOES want some coffee... <.<;;

i tell her she is super cute but she ne believe me

I tots make some, but coffee has limits with tech.

And you are cute. I know that much. >D

EDIT: goes off to shower

I told ya, I'm a stubborn one Obbie. =P


Funky;; Did you see the picture before I took it down? xD;