Lucifer: THANK YOU! *Hugs* And I am sorry to hear you've experienced it too, I can't say in words how deeply

I hope at least I didn't insult anyone. >3> I guess I'm just special cause I haven't ever had these problems. Or shall we say "lucky"?

Lmao, I'm the same way.

I'm not going to take anything from anyone. I can't even imagine liking someone enough to put up with them abusing - or even annoying - me. I'm not that wrapped up in needing another person. I've been romantically alone for twenty years now, I don't really care if I'm alone for twenty more. xD

Yeah, I'm extremely picky and if he even tries telling me what's right and what to do I'd say "Thanks for the opinion I don't give a damn". There's a limit, even for people you love.

If you mean me, no.. we got thrusted into it pretty fast like.. .we'd not even been dating a month it'd been a friendship/casual dating thing but then my grandparents got sick and both were out of the house and he started to stay there to "keep an eye on me/keep em safe"
And I hate being completely alone in a new house (I'd just helped them move in)
And.. it was just a big messed up situation in general.

@Aiko I'm sorry you've went through similar.. :C *huggles tightly*

Johnny & Yuki: I do believe that both are you feel that way and are strong people, I am just saying you don't know before you end up in such a relationship, the signs are not as clear as you think, actually I thought this person only wanted the best for me, and always tried to help me (yes there were jealousy now and then, but not enough to start off any alarm) that was until I moved in.... the first two months went fine and everything was happiness, and then suddenly I found myself slammed into two doors, and ended up with glass pieces all over my body and a hole in my head
There was no way I'd have ever seen that coming

Lucifer: *Hugs tightly back* I am just happy someone understands

XD I'm the oldest here too? Ah well.

Seems so.. I'm only 19, almost 20.. ;)

@Sephiroth: Haha. Well you're older than me at least. I'm 20 : )

I feel so young here.. since I'm only like 19 (well 20 early next month ;P)

I'm 29 on Oct 4th.

They are very clear to me. My mom's latest boyfriend both hurt us both mentally to a level where I wanted to jump off a bridge. From the moment I met him the first time I noticed something wasn't right. And he wasn't always bad but it really wasn't worth it. My mom realized it too and he's out of our lives. I have never met anyone acting so strangely. He always tried to tell us what to do and what was right. He was nuts and he had been dumped by like 7 women before. And it's not hard to understand. A person like him shouldn't live near other people. I noticed it early my mom didn't...

Niceness :D Happy birthday 2 days after mine!! *huggles tightly* x3 (Yeah yeah I'm October 2nd.. xD)

I'm sorry both of you had to go through things like that.

I'm pretty sure I'd be safe, simply because "I only want the best for you" doesn't really work on me unless you're my parents. I'm not a trusting person. It took me years of knowing my friends before I knew that they actually did like me and weren't just hanging out with me out of pity, or to get more information so they could mock me behind my back or otherwise make my life awful. I still think that any time someone looks at me, they're judging me and making fun of me, and I'm still wary whenever someone tries to be nice to me because I assume they're going to push me over or put a "kick me" sign on my back or something.

My lack of socializing skills will probably save me from ever trusting someone too much.

Happy early birthday to Lucifer and Sephiroth! Many good wishes for your special days : )

I'm like johnny, it takes years for me to really trust somebody. I'll automatically assume someone will hurt me in the future if I don't act smart. So I never let them in too soon. This is becuase of years of bullying but I didn't actually choose to see them everyday.

Awww. *snuggles Lucifer*

@Yuki, well Nick never showed the signs, and when we hung out with his other friends, eh didn't even mind if I hung out with his other friends and not him when we first met, he never seemed really off (I mean he wore a fox tail behind him, but hell most people in Portland, Oregon are on the weird scale, it's an awesome town like that I mean his other friend wore a pirate hat)

But he WAS bi-polar I've found out later, he told he he didn't have a criminal record at all, and such, but it turns out he did, he was just a very very good manipulator, and lost his temper.

I'm usually good at reading people but his was like a ligthswitch, sweet and caring,. helping me and my grandma and grandpa (even offering to help her make dinner cause she was starting off the mental breakdown from stress)
And then to the point of pinning my arms behind me, twisting my wrist almost out of it's socket for just teasingly squeezing his moob, and when we got into an argument once, he threw a handheld dremel at my head, and it shattered a hole a freaking HOLE in the window behind my head, not even a foot and a half off (I guess I should be glad he didn't have good aim, otherwise my skull would have been broken)

Johnny: It's not like I trust anyone easily either, this was one of the first people I'd ever let myself trust because this person didn't act like the usual assholes who usually were mean to me...
Now I just don't trust anyone... at all.... maybe my family, but then that would be the only people in the world I let myself trust... the rest can go to hell for all I care
I know how I keep saying that these people at this new place seems so much nicer, but still I walk around checking them for even the smallest sign of any abusive nature...

I trust a person less if they act really nice.

Because usually, when people acted nice to me, it was right before they tripped me and slammed my head into a cafeteria table.

johnny, I understand the looking over your shoulder, it's taken me a few years now to even be remotely able to trust my best/only real friend here.

I was emotionally bullied and such when I was in Utah, like kids would do the normal tripping and such but never really hurt me, a kid called me a fat whore once, I was called a witch, goth...
Kids would trick me, pretend to be friends so then they could make fun of me more later, and also go "Hey Alexa _______ likes you" and then __ would say "NO I don't HE likes you..!" and such, using me as joke brunts, it was worse but I've tried to block it out from my head.

When I went to Oregon again after, kids were super sweet and friendly in general and guys would flirt with me, and I guess they actually meant it, but I was too wary to even believe they were being nice, I was defensive and just.. you know uptight and scared compared to them.. but oh well ^^;

The only reason the kids in Utah weren't more physically abusive to me is they were suppose to be 'good little mormons' and such.. -_-
Although they did lock me out of the bus once when the bus driver had left it and had left it open for kids to go in to relax because it had started raining...

I have warm, buttered bread... Just out of the oven...

*snugs Yuki gently* I wouldn't hurt you asides my name and avatar.

Sephiroth! Why did you kill the townspeople!?

*rolls*

*catches Sei and cuddles*

*bites Alex*

Johnny: I usually do too, because if people act nice, they usually want something out of me, but this was different, instead of having to give things, I kept getting small gifts and all kinds of nice stuff, all that was asked for in return was my "friendship". That was the first time ever I had tried even being close to having a friendship, as Lucifer said, you can't figure bipolar people out that easily because they don't purposely hide their temper, it changes like a lightswitch, I am sure, one 100% that Amy had a nice side, and I am still sure she has it. But it was such small things that ticked her off, and suddenly you'd find yourself on the floor, not even sure what you said wrong, it could be a simple word taken out of the context and she would be about to kill you.
1 hour after she would be crying and saying she was so sorry for hurting you and she would never do it ever again.
And as it wasn't a lie on purpose, you would be believing her, and give her yet another chance until next time you landed on the floor (yes girls can be abusive too)

Ooooooh sounds yummy. Do want xD

Hey, Sephy. *hugs*

Hello, all. :3

Alexander: You remind me I should make some noodles soon :O

Sei!!!


@ Sakura - it's yummy xD

@ Sephiroth - *bites back*

I'm out of words I guess I just don't care enough to have more opinions...

I feel like the prodigal son wandering in from the desert...
Hey everyone, hope y'all have had a good September so far.
New osm layout is new and osm, what

*pokes Yuki*

Alex!!! :'D

Hey, Rem. Welcome home! :3

@Lucifer:

I pretty much had the same school experience you did. Did the kids in Florida have doppelgangers in Utah? xD

I got called a witch, a dyke, my nickname was practically "Hey Ugly", and they all did the "He likes you" thing, too. Only, even after that I still have never had anyone flirt with me or actually like me romantically, so I'm assuming the ugly thing was probably the most truthful thing they'd ever said to me.

On one hand, the whole experience sort of gave me my personality. I became sarcastic, very bookish, I became obsessed with learning as much as I could about anything... I settled down in my acceptance that I'd probably be single for the rest of my life, and I'm okay with that because I have friends and family. On the other hand, however, the experience pretty much ruined my social abilities and made me so paranoid that when a lot of people look at me at one time (speech class this semester is going to be awesome! /sarcasm) I break down crying.

*bites Alex more!* *while cuddling Sei...*

:C *Huggles Aiko in close and snugs* Well I'll never hurt yous cause you're awesomeness~

Also seeing my friend's younger brother(he's bipolar) I can see the whole happyhapyphappy then Hey Britt(my friend) Can I have a cigarette? and if she says no hes' all *flipout* THIS IS BULLSHIT *punches air,storms around, etc*
He mighta knocked up a girl, too DD;

Oy x.x

Hey random thing.. anybody here hear of the K2 'incense' most people seem to use because it's a legal, synthetic weed?

*bites Sephiroth again and tackles Sei away from Sephiroth*

xD

Noooo! My cuddle thing!