oh man, we don't put tap in the kettle. it's a good way to destroy it

stupid fucking essay.

also i'm watching haikyuu. fun. wish i didn't have to write essays or travel though.

I feel really accomplished right now and want to blast through my apartment and get stuff all cleaned and organized!
...but I'm at work for the next 5.5 hours...
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that might make things a little difficult XD

...aaaaand feeling energetic and inspired is gone.
XD
Jk I may still be slightly motivated when I get home.

Did some work clearing up the rooms today. :/
+ made a cute little snowman
+ found some songs I could add to my playlist...

<:/ Next I gotta prepare some things and what I plan to do when I go spend some time up at my fish dad's cabin. >:/ Hopefully I'll be in a less miserable environment with some decent food that's good for the body, and actually be able to learn to adult more. o-o;

...I shhhhoooullld write about it! :D My therapist would love to read my self-improvement journey I'm sure!

Gonna try to be productive while dinner cooks in the oven tonight.
Pop dinner in the oven, spend 30-40 min cleaning. Sounds like a good plan. Let's see how I actually do at it...
XD

Go for it! >:}

what is for dinner?

OwO share snowpics?

So tired.

Maybe I'm just a curmudgeon that's getting a little too old, but I really don't like the holiday season.

Four "major" holidays in three months means the whole world around me getting redecorated, schedules getting repeatedly disrupted, social expectations piling on, money having to be spent... more that has to get done, but no extra time to do it in.

And then when it's all over, cleaning up and trying to recover a sense of normalcy, re-establishing routines that got disrupted, and -- social pressures ahoy! -- a compulsion to try to start a new routine during the time when routines are all out of whack already.

I haven't been able to get much of anything done today because I'm just so burned out. x.x You'd think that the vacation would be an opportunity to FIX burnout, but... no, "holiday" means the rest of the world just wants me to do something else.

Unhealthy pizza roll "enchilada" casserole.
Basically cheese pizza rolls smothered in enchilada sauce eith sliced olives and more cheese on top.
I wanted to add some bell peppers as well, but didn't quite have enough money for them.

Gotcha. :3

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I have a lazy happy cat in my lap =u=b

...olives? welp. you and i aren't friends anymore

What if I told you that I decided the olives weren't really that good in it and that I kinda am not a huge fan of them anymore?

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Ugh, I need to get up for work, but Batty is all snuggly and cute and I don't wanna move!

Apparently YouTube must have a limit on how many channels you can block from suggestions, because they are showing back up after having been blocked.

I'm not aware of any such limit, but irritatingly YouTube doesn't offer a way to see a list of channels you've selected "don't recommend channel" for. (You can only clear the list, not view it or modify it. This means there's no undo feature if you blocked the wrong channel...) This makes me wonder if it isn't a perfect blacklist but rather just a strong negative bias, and watching a video from one of those channels tells the algorithm that you don't hate it as much as you said you did.

My recommendation would be to continue to say "don't recommend channel" when the videos come up, and also to check your watch history and search history to remove related videos that would make YouTube think it's something you'd want to see anyway.

It's a machine learning algorithm. It'll figure it out if you keep giving it feedback, and it'll have trouble if you don't give it consistent signals.

That said... If there are that many channels that upset you so much that you don't want to see them at all, then I have to wonder what's in your profile that makes YouTube think you want them, because clearly SOMETHING must be wrong.

That IS what Mer and I were talking about.

Channels that come back are ones I've never watched. Like sports related. Never said they upset me. I'd just rather it suggest things that may be of interest, rather than ones that aren't. I do regularly clear things from history.

Oh, you sounded a lot more upset about it than that when you were talking about it. My bad.

The big categories on the front page are worthless, by the way. You can't actually control them. Stuff the algorithm determines are of high interest in your region/demographic/etc. will always show up there no matter what your own profile says.

hhhhmmm... well, i am not sure i should believe you buuut i am going to anyway. welcome back to the friendship bus<3

you can totally get to sit behind the drivers seat if you agree that anchovies and mushroom is pretty boss

Derpy waddles through. "Fish are fwiends, not food!"

I've learned that it helps to keep up with the weather, not so that you are prepared for the conditions themselves, but so you know what to talk about when strangers want to make small talk about the weather.

Can tell I've been watching too much YouTube when certain youtubers make cameo appearances in my dreams.
XD

-u- Sometimes fish are friends AND food. :D *gives Derpy the snack that smiles back~*
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikiped...h_crackers.jpg
^w^ Yummy!

got new phone, paid for it with own money.

had to get bro to help w/ SIM card and the sim card tray. it works, but i'll have to re-add my fucking contacts again. gahhh.

also i have to set things up to my email and such.

Woah! Cool timing barker! <x'D I just got my new phone yesterday!
Also had to re-add some contacts. >.>;
What a coincidence...from thousands of miles across the pond. <x}

Derpy sits on the floor playing with the pile of goldfish crackers, and making them swim through the air and talk to each other.

<x'} awh..that's adorable..*feels bad that I wanna eat the entire pile now*

I'd like to see a documentary or something that profiles the strange eating habits one might develop when they only have to cook or prepare foods for themselves.

It's actually getting kinda scary how much drama is going on on Youtube right now..

I loved watching ASMR and sometimes mukbang channels...
But everywhere you turn, some random mukbanger is suddenly involved in some drama. I don't know what's going on, but the whole thing honestly disgusts me.

I just want to watch people eat food and talk about life..
I did not sign up for all of this... I dunno? Cancel/Expose thing going on on Youtube right now.

A lot of my favorite content creators have either left Youtube or have gone so silent.

And the drama is clearly spreading further and further... I used to like watching some vegan Youtubers, but there was recently a wave of "quitting veganism" and it caused such a huge issue. It didn't even have to be an issue! People can eat whatever they want... but the drama!!!! :(

It feels like middle school all over again. And I HATE IT.
I can't even watch Youtube in bed to relax anymore... Every time I go on to Youtube, it's just more and more drama and it's getting out of hand...

Derpy offers a pawful of goldfish. "It's okay, they're just cwackers!"

and the sign flashed out its warning in the words that it was forming

and the sign said “the words of the prophets are written on the subway walls and tenement halls and whispered in the sound of silence”

I've mainly been watching youtubers talk about being careful with the FF VII remake leaks... ouo

I mostly just watch lets play videos and silly product reviews (like grav3yard girl's Does this thing really work videos, nerdEcrafter's craft kits reviews, and dope or nope). And have also been watching a lot of Britain/America's got talent compilation videos recently.

neither of us can remember the password for the router at the shop.

not too much of a problem, right?

well, all the guides i look at are either on a different version of windows 7, are for a different version of windows entirely, or i can't access specific menus.

What on earth makes people think that during normal business hours is a time when I can just answer my phone whenever I freaking want?!?
Like...okay landlord, chill the f out. Your "vendor" or whatever you called them has only called and left a single voicemail regarding setting up a time to come in so you don't need to call twice more AND send texts! I WILL CALL THEM BACK SO CHILL OUT! I just happen to work a lot! You know....hours that fall between 7am and 6pm 6 days a week.
(Like, I get that as businesses, they can only call during business hours, but I don't need 3 different phone calls, 2 voicemails, and a text message all within about 1 hour.)

tfw you keep forgetting to get back to mers and... the other one about commissions.
whoops.

There should be Costco sized spools of floss.

i keep forgetting to brush my teeth.

Oh my god. So I tried to call the person who is supposedly gonna fix my apartment's ceiling....only to have them not answer.
Thanks landlords, but you can't blame the whole "they're having trouble reaching you" thing on me.
XP

If pattern holds true, they'll probably try calling sometime in the next 4 hours while I'm at work. And again tomorrow morning while I'm at work.
If I don't remember to try calling first thing in the morning, I'll just quickly answer the call at work. It's just the museum, so the rules are a bit more kax, but it's still not recommended to be on non business calls.