Hmm, true true Coda. /:[
Very unfortunate. :c
Learning to be more "well-adjusted" to me is learning how to function in society with relative success...which I..haven't gotten around to successfully learning yet. >~>; Much of it is fear, and some stubbornness. But also sadness because, y'know, dissociation and internalization. :c And self-loathing... >_>; Feel like I should stop talking..Imma stop talking.

I finished my arts! 8D

Didn't know I needed stuffed dinosaur skull headpieces in my life, but here we are.

Very nice Kitty! :o Good job on the Reno art! So sad. ;.;

Key word is: "NEEDed". o_o This skull headpiece is needed. I need one. It looks so cool!

me adding more things to plate even when i'm already full
CONTINENTAL BREAKFAST. I"LL HAVE WHAT IM HAVING

Oh, same, every time I go to the campus dining hall, which is at least twice a week.

having a crisis over wondering if people actually like me again. people liked me when i did fishnets wilson constantly. people demanded i do fishnets wilson. i eventually stopped doing fishnets wilson.

People liking you is not the same as people liking your art. And if their affections can only be bought by drawing them art of something they like, well, then, I've got bad news for you.

>.> I should really be studying for my midterm...
<-<; but I don't care about the midterm...
>n>;but I should really be studying for the midterm.

ironically, the fact that people started demanding fishnets wilson made me stop doing that meme in the first place.

midterms
 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Okay so...

I recovered from my breakdown two days ago.
Yes, I did have a breakdown because my sewing machine stopped working...
And yes, that did send me into a spiral of anxiety and borderline panic attack because the convention is this Saturday...

I want to blame myself for not buying my materials at a reasonable time...

But that's the joys of being disabled, I guess...
You can only be given so much in SSDI and I have other responsibilities that I had to look after first.

UGH!
To be a cosplayer with little means... ;-;

"The fact that you think that normal people murder simply because they’re male is disingenuous"
BITCH I SAID TOXIC MASCULINITY AFFECTS DOMESTIC VIOLENCE MORE THAN MENTAL ILLNESS DOES I DIDN'T SAY BEING A MAN DOES U FUCKING DENSE MESS
ughh now I'm annoyed!! I no longer consider her a good artist u.u

To be fair someone can create fantastic art and be a huge douchebag at the same time. Those aren't mutually exclusive.

(also: same artist who isn't "attracted to invented genders" and thinks every mental illness makes you a mass murderer?)

:/ I'm an great-ish/okay artist, and I don't like babies. I don't hate them, but I don't like them. Not even a little bit. And I get that I was a baby once, and so were my brother and my cousins, but we're not babies no more. Probably the only jerk-y thing about me. Not sure if that counts for anything? >n> I'll tolerate babies only to be polite, but that's my limit. Babies however like me, <.<; for some odd reason. They find my stares of disgust and discomfort amusing somehow. >u> They're weird little things..and they smell. >n>

I can't separate art and artist, DbM, I guess I'm too emotional. because I'm a woman and stuff |D

Merskelly, as long as you don't go out of your way to, you know, hit babies or anything... xD no problem. My sister keeps me sending pics of the babies of her friends and I always reply with >:( and she asks me if I don't have a heart. I do, if I didn't I'd be forwarding those pics around the internet to laugh of their ugly faces. I just don't want to see them! And that's ok!

>.>; I have a similar issue with one artist I knew once, and as good as her art was/is, I cannot veiw her art without my blood boiling and heart shrinking..mostly because of my past with her...
;u; But I'm glad someone understands. <3

I wouldn't harm a baby. -u- I might even play with one, if it was soft-spoken and tame enough. >-> They still gross and clumsy tho. Frickin' babies..I will keep them from being an idiot and hurting themselves, but I don't like babies. >n>
https://media.tenor.co/images/b14558...49586a74e9/raw

crotch goblins

Tw; Spoiler has loads of foul language...
Sorry ;-;

CROTCH GOBLINS

I wanna go back to sleep, but it's too late. <x'{ I'm already awake and I gotta find two plays to read in my old college's single story library, bc my new college doesn't have them despite having 6 floors of books. B[ And I gotta take the stinkin' bus. >n> But I wanna shower or at least clean my hair, cause it's gettin' slimy and gross..

Quick Update: Sh*t, never mind. <x'D I can just find the plays online after all haha!

i'm very tired and slept until 15:45-ish.

The phrase "toxic masculinity" is a trigger word for a lot of people because almost nobody (on any side of any issue) actually understands what it actually means. This results in people becoming instantly emotional. (I don't use "trigger" lightly there. It really is a trigger scenario.)

Far too many people use "toxic masculinity" as code for "men are toxic." I'm not saying you're one of those people (on the contrary, I think you probably DO know that it refers to the unhealthy social pressures on what defines a masculine identity), but it's such a common misappropriation of the term among radical feminists that it's easy for the average layperson to think that's what everyone means by it.

Now, I also have a doubt that your claim is actually correct, but that's primarily because I'm unaware of any statistics that can specifically support a link between men exposed to toxic social upbringings and domestic violence, controlling for mental health issues. I'm not going to discount the possibility entirely -- it's DEFINITELY true that there's a correlation between men who witnessed domestic violence as children and men who commit domestic violence as adults. But there's a reasonable hypothesis to be investigated that toxic social pressure might be a cause of anxiety disorders and stress disorders in men. (I believe it to be likely, but I can't claim it with certainty because I'm also not aware of that research either.) If this is true, then the results of toxic masculinity are causative of mental health disorders, which means that mental health disorders are in fact the main source of concern.

so... i don't ever see feminists of any ilk use toxic masculinity as short-hand for men=bad. i do however see a lot of people scapegoating all sorts of feminists in an effort to explain who is misusing the term and on occasion i see non-feminists using toxic masculinity as short-hand for men=bad (sometimes while pretend-playing as a feminist though not usually) or female-identifying persons in general making men=bad comments and being called feminist without meeting any of the criteria


feminists believe in equality between the sexes and while the minutia of what that exactly entails makes for different types of feminists(some of whom are rather toxic by virtue of endorsing aspects toxic masculinity/femininity) that core value is shared. men=bad is not even within the ballpark of what feminism has ever stood for in any iteration that has been documented and it's uncomfortable to see feminism thrown under the proverbial bus once again by some random person who does not understand feminism

essentially, feminists reckon that men can do better, in a sense.

Thanks! I was going for a more dramatic tone, we hardly see Reno be serious and thus wanted to make it as such. XD

feminists reckon that everyone can do better and deserves better <3

it is unfortunate though that they have a bad rep, bc I hesitate to call myself a feminist depending on who I'm around, even though I am.

"To do this, the computer computed-"

Yeah, good job, brain, well done...

haha xD

"A century after Babbage first envisioned the Analytical Engine, the early computer IBM Automatic Sequence Controlled Calculator, or ASCC, also known as the Harvard Mark I, read instructions from input tape with punched holes, and punchcards were used as a form of programming well into the 80s."

jegus frick that is entirely too many words; i can't even read my own writing typing

I think it's okay. Maybe it would be easier to read if it was split up into multiple sentences?

Not sure I *can* split that into two sentences without it sounding choppy...-er.

"The use of punch cards, a form of programming used well into the 80s, was first demonstrated when the IBM Automatic Sequence Controlled Calculator (ASCC) read instructions from an input tape punched with holes. Also known as the Harvard Mark I, the ASCC came about a century after Babbage first envisioned the Analytical Machine."

Maybe? Idk if I changed the meaning / said something incorrectly

I... huh. That DOES read better. Thanks. Need to tweak it a little bit.

happy to help! <3

Ended up using some of your structure there with some of what I originally had, because I needed the line about Charles Babbage right at the beginning, since I segued into the Mark I from the previous paragraph about the Analytical Engine.

*stares blankly into the universe* o-o ...

is the universe staring back?

Unfortunately, this is a No True Scotsman argument.

I wish I could say you were right, that no one ever does that in seriousness, that it's all just hyperbole leveled by the opposition... but no. Misandrists are real. I've talked to people who would believe the world would be a better place if men were abolished. "Kill all men" is a phrase that has been uttered in earnest.

I agree with you on the definition of what feminism SHOULD be, but there is definitely a group of radical people that believe that women are better than men and that equality isn't a goal. You can say they're not really feminists, that they don't stand for feminist ideals, but they call themselves feminists. (As an analogy, keep in mind that some people actually do self-identify as TERFs as well.) And it only takes a few of them to poison the well; when there are real examples of such behavior that misogynists can point to, it gives them the ammunition they need to start spreading anti-feminist messages and have it actually gain traction.

And buzzwords such as "toxic masculinity" only make it worse, because almost nobody knows how to properly tell someone what it means, which ends up with shouting matches where everyone's getting emotional and talking past each other because they aren't even talking about the same thing.

It's certainly frustrating, but it's a fact of reality that this is a thing that some people believe -- accurate or not -- at a fundamental, emotional level that bypasses rationality. It has to be taken into account if you want to have real discussion with such people, because it's legitimately triggering for them. (Now, if you DON'T actually care about reasoning with them, then I guess it doesn't matter, but at that point you're just hurting yourself by trying.) Getting upset because they're arguing based on a misunderstanding isn't going to do anything to resolve that misunderstanding. You have to take a step back and establish fundamentals and definitions so you're on the same page.

I have... a lot of thoughts on this topic, but not enough spoons to address all of them. Or time. Or lack of migraine. Might get back to this at a later time.