why not try >:'''''< ?

Calf high caterpillar would be mildly terrifying...

i'm not sure why you'd want a calf-high caterpillar, but a fucking huge moth or butterfly as a steed? hell yeah.

You would get covered in their wing powder stuff. (Edit: scales, their scales)

:c If someone makes me angry cry, they'd better have a loving apologetic hug at the ready, or I might just run away...straight to the nearest graveyard. -n- Because it excuses my tears, <-<; and no one's gonna mind..

Hiding your tears by burying the person that mad you angry in the graveyard. Very hardcore.

Stab them. Use the tears to wash away the blood.

I was thinking bury alive, but stabbing is always an option, though a messy one.

Irl I'm too soft and plushie to do such a thing.~ ;.;

But in my dreams..., holy hell, +_+;
once I stabbed 90 times, each with a new knife or utensil or shard of glass or nail, and then had the head guillotined slowly and bloodily with a rusty shovel before smashing it in, then having the entirety of the body is minced up to a pulp with a giant rotary lawnmower.

I may have waaaaaaaay too much rage bottled up. e-e;;; Eyhhhh, so I think I'll stick with hiding in a crypt. ^~^;

I've had dreams involving firearms since I was a kid. No clue why.

Stabbing doesn't have to be messy. Take a long enough blade, and you can hit the right parts without cutting through an artery.

You could be the most awful, abusive and terrible person to me...
And I would never ever fight you or hit you. If anything, I might cry about it in private and I might get passive aggressive and talk shit about you (while not revealing who you are, ofc) to my friends or someone who's an outsider of the situation.

BUT.

In my dreams, I'm a badass. You so much as look at me cross and I'll bitchslap you so hard.

I wish my dream self could come out sometimes.
There's been many times where people have treated me poorly, some even abuse me and I just sit there and cry because I'm weak ;u;

won't come out by itself; you need to actively let it out

There is a big difference between actually jumping to spontaneous violence and slowly easing yourself into self-advocacy. You can learn to Stan up for yourself without having to slap people. It is a hard process, but I think with practice you could get there someday.

ene; I do the same.
But I think I can stand up for myself better, >~>;
even if it looks like weepy anxiety and bitchiness.
<:] It's self-advocacy if you've defended yourself from further outside hurt.
<:/ Unfortunatley it can do nothing against inside hurt, self-inflicted or lingering. That's why sometimes it's hard to stand up I think, <:c buhcuz you feel you'll be hurt either way.

Still, >3>; I sometimes wish I could get away with smackin' some flippin' people in the face for their insolence. A slap is gentle compared to my rage dream's actions. <x'}

We are always learning how to best live our lives. Even talking about it is a step in the right direction.

:] I like that you can take steps in the right direction, even if you just float or wiggle around. ^~^;