i swear tae fucking GOD if i have to keep smelling cigarette smoke i'm gonna go focken FERAL. feral little bastard man coming through.

My dad quit smoking practically overnight bc my mom was pregnant w me and I super appreciate that

For the sheer volume of complaints I have about my parents, they’re not terrible people, but oh boy does Taiwanese culture not understand mental illness

actually just asian cultures as a whole

yeah, i've heard. it's not much better over in the UK. we don't really have the resources for that shit, either?

like, to get a therapist, you still have to pay. we're basically america-lite in that respect. but physical issues, you get treatment but have to pay for prescriptions, you know? (good thing the acne meds are like, 9£ odd.)

mate i gotta pay for therapist, psychiatrist, AND meds

because I have that motherfucker MTHFR gene defect which means something along the lines of SSRIs and SNRIs being only half as effective as they should be, so I neglect to take special methylfolate supplements for that

something something folic acid

at least the MTHFR defect I have only cuts efficiency to 50%; one of my friends has the version that cuts it to 10%.

oh jesus christ.

genetics are a fuckload of shit that i ought to learn about tbh.

Genetics is fun until you inherit a boatload of shit

also genes from your dad’s side which mean you’ll never have a particularly androgynous physical form

i mean, i got a bit lucky in the genetics department with being short + stocky.

and fairly hairy hjkhkj

thing is, i get awful amounts of acne.

Hah, I bet I’m shorter than you are.

Unfortunately I inherited a butt and thighs.

got glorious leggs.

They’re not even glorious haha

Long torso (for my size)

short leggy

leggys

i don't like having emotions very much.

Presumably if you get brain trauma in the area that controls emotions, you’d rid yourself of some of them? But obv you’re v likely to fuck a lot of other things up.

gestures in an excessively vague manner.

i do not like having emotions. i'm supposed to be happy for this person that is getting with their own crush and yet.

i'm supposed to be goddamn happy.

Ohhh, that. Yeah, that happens.

happens too often.

part of you can be happy for them and other part sad for you
if we could control our emotions rationally they wouldn't be

emotions

i still don't like having emotions.

I don’t see anything wrong with having complete control over your emotions. And other things.

Actually, that’s one of the reasons I like videogames much more than movies. I need to control things. I need to be in control.

i think that's a bit of a mood, too.

though, i like the feeling of random generation to spice things up a little, i guess?

I had to adjust my therapy session scheduling to tomorrow instead of on Thursdays now. It's gonna be so weird to see my doctor in the afternoon rather than first thing in the morning tho. /x} heh.

Ooohh please yes! Put it in the tank. ;U; ~<3
I sleep in there!

god, i wish i could get therapy.

Nearly stepped on a copperhead. It's raining and I wasn't expecting anything. But it was probably enjoying the nice soak since it's been dry lately.

is it alright?

glad you were lucky!

my void shout is tmi so

squeeze me like ketchup pls

well, i suppose a barry white over a may west if you are going to talk about untimely de-snake-ening X''D

yeah but then i might be accidentally coaxed into accepting the monarchy back into my life X''D

no so keep that sultry tone away from me X''D

oh man, so i am starting to get a little jittery. i think i ought to ease up on the caffeine haha

yeah but all the cats are sick with some mystery ailment and i have to stay up and keep an eye on them. it wouldn't do if one of them took a turn while everyone was asleep. you have to watch pets like you would small children

Goddam I'm hooked on Danganronpa again

Caffeine?

*slurps coffee*

I didn't know that was a thing you could have too much of.

have to test if the graphical glitches happen with other games and not just DST. will probably have to piss about on warframe until i end up having to force the laptop off because i can't see shit.