I don't know if I fully believe that, but, okay. =]

well i know i missed you and eagerly awaited your return ^^
<333 i luff the batty<33

I... don't know if I'm staying..

but... well i cant force you to stay.. just know that i will always be here for you waiting

Theres a lot right now, on the site, that I can't stand seeing.
And I don't want to subject myself to masochism.

I.. have been doing a lot of thinking about things, though.
Fen wouldn't let me leave for good, even if I tried though.

): //huggles
i understand love... just... i hope you really return soon

Patho missed me? <3

Asami;; I'm gritting my teeth, putting my head down, and trying to preserve my fucking sanity.

): well if you ever need me, im just one pm away... <3
i worry about you

Ehh, errythings up in the air, right now.. =/

Battybby! :) -loves on-

And argh. I'm so pissed. I'm still sick as fuck. And my mom. Calls me earlier today, and then calls Sarah and I text her saying "what do you need?" and she says "call me now" like it's urgent. So I tell her fine but I have no voice. And she texts "fine but call me now". So I call her and we're talking and she starts getting pissy with me and then goes "you sound like crap" and I'm like "no fuck. I told you I'm sick and I JUST woke up". She continues with "Well you need to come home and stop taking whatever the hell you're taking" like I'm friggin' poppin pills. She wants to take me to the doctor to get meds and shit and I tell her "I HAVE SOME. This is the same shit that Sarah had, it'll pass." And she got all defensive like "what are you taking?" and it's just regular cold shit. And she told me to "stop taking it immediately" and just drink hot water. And after being pissy she tried to keep a conversation going that I had to stop and go "MOM. I'm SICK. I can't TALK." And after realizing I'm not "playing sick" tried to get all sweet. No fuck you.

I'd rather stay here where the kitchen is two feet away and I can eat in bed. Oh, she also told me "to quit taking that shit that makes you so drowsy apparently" like I'm taking someone's prescription. I'm SICK and SICK people SLEEP. I'm in such a friggin bad mood now. I am just pissed. I was having SUCH a good dream too. Like, REALLY good. That never happens. I'm not even excited about Supernatural tommorow.

Is your mother... retarded? Like... seriously?

OH. AND I GOT MY NEW PHONE. TEXT ME SO I HAVE YOUR BLEEDIN' NUMBER AGAIN.

I know right? I mean I love her but I am just livid right now. I've been trying to fall asleep all day and I finally did and she gets pissy. Like, I tel her I'm sick and can't talk so she calls me and makes me talk for awhile so she can interrogate me and make sure it actually hurts to talk. Like wtf, and then playing it off all sweet towards the end. No.

I want to eat in my own bed, watching TV, curled up. Just relaxing and getting better. I can't do that at my house. Like I was eating enough as is. And now she's gonna be in and out of my room 24/7 and not giving me any damn privacy or understanding of my OCD's.

And will do the second I find my phone again. I kinda... threw it because I was a little pissed.

And it had been such a good dream. x.x

What was it about?
Sexy time with meeeeeee? =O

And I'm sorry, love... The happy high I had all day is fading, and, I'm slowly... I don't know. ><;

Dude there is some intense shit going on with our neighbors. Holy hell.

Haha, no, sorry. ): <3 Tho' that would be lovely too.

It was a dream that might've led to a threesome. But no clue. I was mainly just curled up with some of my favorite blog people that I've never but are ridiculously pretty looking. I don't know. It was cool. And cuddly, and in my kitchen back in Finland. Was awesome. And then I got rudely woken up.