honestly never did .. probably why i didn't come on much..

-Begins to snore quietly-

-sips from his glass of water- not like it matters, only reason i'm still here is choco convinced me to stay..

-Rolls onto my side facing the couch-

man i wish my headache would go away..

-cuddles the panda bear-

then again i probably deserve that too according to some people -rubs his forehead wincing a bit-

-Nuzzles the bear-

i just hope my interview on tuesday goes well i really don't want to lose my only source of income.. -sighs softly- it's just one thing after another lately..

-Rolls back over onto my belly- -o-

-flops onto his back on the floor- happy mother's day to me.. first one.. heh.. -covers his eyes with his left arm- as if it's a happy one..

-rolls off the couch-
-o-

damnit i can't do it i just freaking can't!

i want to make choco happy but there's no way i can stay in this place... i can't even stand to look at myself why should i make other's bother talking to me..

months of recovery gone in a matter of hours..

-Wakes up and stares at the man- o.o

-hugs his knees to his chest trying to hide his face while trembling- useless.. useless..

-Crawls up to him and hands him my bear-
o.o