... *Makes his nest here.* = w = I need to stop disappearing for freaking ever because when I come back I've no idea what's going on.

This is very much the truth. xD;

batty looks pretty!

New router comes tom. Hopefully it won't explode this time.

Also; new goal. Lose 20lbs by October. Now I just have to figure at a medically healthy way for me to do it since I can't do most work outs.

hmmm that sounds hard.... I haven't a clue how you are going to do that...

Eating a very specific diet (tho' I don't really eat at the moment so it's more like ADDING food to it) and this DVD set thing that has 3 lvls of 20 minute work outs that I'm going to start doing once a week to ease myself into it and then twice a week.

Just got done with my first one. :)

that is good to hear! I think i need to get a DVD... I think it would help out a bit... the book i got isn't really helping much.. no motivation

My sister left it for me. The DVD doesn't really motivate me honestly. I'm just wanting to get to a certain weight for myself. I got tired of my parents comments but I'm not doing it for them, or anyone else for that matter. I'm doing this for me because I want to feel good again. A lot of big worries are over now. Yeah I'm not going to school, parents aren't happy with that but at least now I know. Yeah I've got debt coming up but my parents will help. I have set goals ahead of me and I don't have to worry about anyone else. No crazy roommates, no drugs in the house that I have to worry about, not paying for anyone else. It's just a kick back to change. Last time I pushed myself this hard was when I got John's first year memorial tattoo. It's been 3 years and I didn't get to go to Finland, so that sucks. But if I work hard i can make it winter or have enough money saved up for next summer.

No DVD or book is going to give you that type of motivation. To say fuck it and try and get to a place where you're happy. I had to get in fights with a lot of people to finally feel this way, even a little bit about myself. :)

And by the by; do you still want your commission you ordered from me? I'm about to sit down and draw.

HO HARLOTBBY!!!

It isn't Jillian Michaels by chance, is it?
Cause, if its 30 day shred, thats what kicked me off. <3

I am feeling good about myself! I am under 200 now and i'm glad. It took awhile, but at least i am here! I just can't seem to get myself to work out in the least.

:] I'm waiting for WS but in the meantime I'm drawing a piece for you and me. It's super cute idea so far. <3

And I think it is. My sister liked it and recommended it. And she left her hand weights so.


[edit] WS; Congrats. :)

Geez.. that's just... wow

Yeahhh! I started out with that one, and now I do ALL her workouts.

oh batty you seem so crazy with that stuff. How do you get yourself to do it? or at least in the beginning.. how did you do it?

Asami; What's a wow?

Batty; So far it was okay. Like I had to take a minute break with the cardio because it's so leg heavy and medically I'm not allowed to do it but other than that made it through just fine. :) I'm excited to get really started. I'm also prob. gonna start my hour morning walks again when the weather cools down. I'll let you know how I feel after about a week of this.

It wasn't easy.. trust me.
But I hated seeing myself in the mirror.
I could not STAND myself anymore, or the way I looked, or felt..

My ass hit rock bottom. So I got up, and did something about it.


Harlotbby;; You better! I'll be yo personal TRAINAH!