there's a TON of salmon in Seattle. I got so sick of it as a kid because it was a cheap summer grilling meal and we had it a lot.

I can't eat some noodles =(

Lucifer: My parents buy it a lot, but now I moved out and have no money >_>

Hermes: That's a very nice way to view life

The fact that I am, in general, ALIVE, is just beautiful. LIFE is beautiful, and I think everyone would be better off to just realize that. Some horrible shish has gone down in my life, but, you know what? I love my life <3

**snugs Hermes** you have a wonderful outlook on life. =) that is wonderful and to be admired.

-rolls about, rubbing her temples- stupid headache.

Hermes: Impressing
Y'know your point of view on life, is what I fight to have too... since I wanna be a positive person, something I haven't been very good at since I was a child.... but I think I am getting there again...

The positive energy will find you, eventually. Just have to let it in your heart, into your mind, and you will feel a change. I was so moved one day, just gardening, and I had something of an epiphany....

We all have our moments where we can grasp onto the positive and let it take us for a ride like we've never known. We just need to have open minds, open ears, open hearts.

Hermes: Yeah, I am pretty sure this place is good for me. It's the first place in many years where I don't have to be "someone", but just have to be myself, and people accept me.
I tell you, I was almost crying today... and it was because I realized I haven't been me for all these years...

**hugs Aikio** we really do love you for who you are, and I am so glad you realize that. =)

It's a weird feeling, noticing that you barely recognize the person using your mouth, looking in your mirror, but then have to come to terms with who you really are, and wondering if you will ever really know.

BTW, you won't

And it's sad that sometimes when you realize and start being your self pretty much fully, people around you slowly step away and disappear. Of course, you find new people to be with, but there are moments, it really does feel like "heck, do I belong anywhere?". Still, wouldn't want to be anyone else.
Except I wouldn't want to have my vegetativ dystonia flashes. ><

Lucid: Thank you, I really appreciate it

Since I come from a very small society people had always heard stuff about me no matter where I went, so people always expected something of me that I wasn't... and all these years..... I guess I've just been accepting it...
Don't get me wrong, I've always been fighting back by not doing what they told me to do, but I still let them think those things about me, because I thought I was fine alone..

Hermes: true, no one, not even yourself have the final answer to that.
Also because even if we are being true to ourself, every experience in life changes us...

I've learned the hard way to just be myself...Sometimes, all the faking, all the masking, all the little lies and such...they pile on top of you, and eventually, they crush you.

The truth is a very light burden to carry, once you stop thinking of it as such a bad thing.

Hermes: Yeah
But when I look back at the person I used to be, it almost scares me to death.
I mean I was a shell, a pretty emo-ish shell, but nothing more than a shell of negative and depressive feelings, and hate towards everyone else, because I thought everyone else hated me..