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Originally Posted by Tam I am
(Post 1637326)
I have sensory issues. I get sensory overload, and if I get it bad enough all I can do is rock myself and cry inside.
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I have sensory issues too. If I get overstimulated, I feel like my brain's on a hamster wheel, and I have to retreat to someplace quiet and sleep. I can't even handle being online at those points. It makes me feel guilty as *bleep* for it, because I can't focus and I can't even handle conversing with the people I like talking to best.
And then there are the days when not even Tam saying something extremely out of character can get me to laugh (if only from the sheer shock of her doing that, because she's far more polite with her language and mannerisms than I am), and the spiral aims downward at a very steep angle. I've had quite a few of those days since the start of the year. It's only the fact that I have a VERY long list of people who would be disappointed in me if I did something stupid that stops me, on those days.
I'm not even sure what's "wrong" with me per se, but I strongly suspect either depression or bipolar. I also tested and found it's highly likely that I'm in the Autism Spectrum. I was diagnosed with ADD/ADHD-Inattentive Type as a 7-8 year old (unusual for girls in the 1990s, before it started being more commonly diagnosed), but as I got older, the things meant to treat it and let me function the way the majority of my classmates did started failing one by one. I finally stopped being medicated by choice when I was a freshman in college, which was kind of dumb of me at the time, but it was either go cold turkey, or spend the entire school year in a headfog so thick I could barely function. I haven't been on those medications since 2005.
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