Sorry it's been so long. My momma's been in and out of the hospital and focusing on school. (Which 96 on my last biology exam. Last time I had biology was.... 8 years ago.)

Hey Batteh! Haven't been on here in a long time >.<

-Wiggles about on the floor.-

-gasps.- I see a Moonless!

Batterz, I might go poof for a few days off of here and my phone.. Though I am not sure yet! :P

But...but whyyyyy.

Awe, Is espy gonna miss me? :3

Well yeah, of course.

-pokes around-

Love received?

Haha, Well, GoW Ascension come out tomorrow, And I will probably head over to my friends to play it. Where his room is in his house Cell service is scarce. Natsu needs his phone for net, and will probably be crashing at said friends house.. So no way to get on and post :P


@batterz HI BATTERZ <3

HAI HAI.

<.<;; The day got incredibly worse.

o.o;; I hope you're okay...

What happened hun? OuO

Considering Zane went out to get food, and there still is NO food?
Thats debatable. xD

Well, alright. Let me rephrase that. Is ZANE okay?

Physically.... maybe...

Mentally? -walks away whistling-

LOL! Espy your read my mind on that post..


Doesn't that boy ever learn?

Bats is a redheaded force of evil to be reckoned with.. ouo

-grimace- Remind me to never get Batts angry.

As long as you remind me the same thing! CX We will keep each other reminded.. ouo

Neither one of you have ever seen me mad.

Go drop Zane a PM. He'll tell you horror stories.
<.<;; I swear I've never made him spit blood.

In his defense though, this time, he was more focused on getting my mom something that she wouldn't throw up. She's been sick all day, and I've been taking care of her.

But.. this is getting to be ridiculous. If he'd gone out earlier, like he said he would, I'd at least have Jelly to nom on.

No,I haven't seen you mad, But I can imagine.. That's what makes it even more scary.. XD

Friday, I threw all his clothes out of the house and into the yard.
Even chipped his pillow in.

I was severely serious about kicking him out of my house.

-sigh- I'm really worried about the three of you. Seriously.

I don't know WHAT the hell is wrong with him lately.

He's got physical evidence that the way he's been, has been making me sick.
BODILY, sick. Theres zero reason why I should be contracting over 100 degree fevers on a weekly basis.

I thought with him starting his new job things would be good.. he wouldn't be miserable anymore.. but now its like he's completely void of thought. Or he overthinks. Or he talks himself into thinking something completely different than what I've said.

It makes NO sense.


The boy knows I won't get food for myself, because of my condition. knows I wont even ask for it, because I just CANT. He also know what I will, and what I wont, eat. Yet, he's been to the store three times in the last week... and I'm still sitting here with nothing in my stomach. Or he starts random fights out of nowhere. Almost like he wants me to be angry with him.

And the more this goes on... I can't emotionally handle it anymore. Not with whats going on in the house right now, with the whole we havent gotten a ride to go shopping thing, not with me worrying constantly about whats going on in my head..now moms really sick..

I cant do my shit, his shit, AND moms shit. I'm going to break.

That sounds like me when I crashed under stress last semester.

Batty needs to get out and have a batty day where she can do whatever and not worry about others.

Thats exactly whats going to happen to me.

My body put itself into a coma this morning. It refused to wake up.
Almost like it was trying to AVOID having to go another day like the ones that've been happening.

Its no ones fault we can't go shopping-- but its still something I worry about. And he slept till FIVE this afternoon. While I was running around with no fuel in the tank, trying to do what I could to get everything mom and I split done, then I went out on the bike to get litter for the cats, since we've been needing that desperately, too.

But she wouldn't let me go to the actual GROCERY store, because she was terrified I wouldn't make it there and back in one piece.

Pfft, I would have woken his ass up D< That is bull bats.. <.<

Granted, he's been working and if he's slept until five, I'm sure he needed most of that. Doesn't mean he couldn't have been woken up earlier, though.

Haha.. a day for me, huh?
If I don't do everything, it doesn't get done.
Besides, I worry about them more than myself.

Espy;; He sleeps at work, too. xD; I don't MIND, or even CARE if he sleeps all day.. I was upset, because I was awake when he got home, and he said he was going to go, then didn't. Don't say you're gonna do something, and then.. ya know.. don't.

You still need a day regardless bats.. Trust me i know.. I used to be.. Hell I still am ran ragged everyday dealing with fights and bs.. Some times a day off is needed..

I love him to death.

I just wish I knew what was wrong, so I could help =/

I think it's just the fact that he's trying to earn enough money to let you buy more food to feed yourselves. Responsibility can be a pretty damn heavy thing.

Your welcome to tell me to shut up and keep my ideas to myself btw (not saying that you would) I just really worry about my friends bats.. Especially my close friends.

Espy;; We're on food stamps, babe. He doesn't buy food, we do.

....Shit, sorry. Forgot about that. I was going to tell you to just ask him, but Zane...is...Zane.

I'm sure he feels a lot of responsibility, of course!
I'm not.. I don't know.. I'm mad at him, but I think theres something else going on entirely..

And he KNOWS he can talk to me, if thats it.
He's my best friend. ><;

He might be just emotionally stressed out from work.

He just started... he's his own boss, he gets paid more..

What stress?

Some times the working atmosphere can be stressful or frustrating if it doesn't go the right way.. I don't know.. I'm just throwing something out there sweetie.

I know, I know.
I just hope tomorrows a better day.