So sleepy today. Day basically lost...

Lol...I love that my coworkers at the library have similar dark senses of humor to me... xD

Heheh, if you have a dinosaur, it's a rule that it has to be doing something...evil or not.

Normally he holds a little pencil but then one person made him a club and the rest is history...like the seal's about to be.
XD

In other news trying not to panic while I walk bome on lunch to see if my coworker's panic about a firetruck on/near the block where my apartment is was warranted or not... xP

I have been working on this project in bursts for... a very long time.

But at least it's starting to shape up.
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachmen...44/unknown.png

This is the second time I've thrown out the UI and rewritten it from scratch.

toothache is better now, going to go speedrun taking my antidepressants soon.

i am very much an idiot.

I can feel autumn creeping up in my bones and soul and it makes me have a happy.

yaay autumn!

in other news, why does this moving thing have to have taken such a complicated turn? *sigh*

god, finally. it's been way too hot this summer.

Signed up to volunteer at animal rescue. First day was okay, but mostly because it was just an orientation. I've already gone through it in my head a million times for how much I might screw up and cause a disaster of some sort. Still have training, but worried about my poor memory recall and general likelihood of misinterpreting directions.

hm so there's this project I'm organizing right. Several people signed up! Which is cool. The closest friend in the project still hasn't delivered their part... a week after the deadline. I understand life happens but someone had an aunt die and still delivered that part. I hate pressuring people into doing stuff ughh

Completed all my hours for training. Quite a massive list of duties to take care of, but at least they are helpful in reminding you on what to do. Met quite the cuties at the rescue, wish I could foster them but don't qualify under their terms.

keeping communications open for someone from the past. we were both cunts to each other, to put it bluntly. is nice to have that acknowledged, i guess?

APOLOGIES FOR THE RAGEY, ALL-CAPS BS.
BUT GOOD FUCKING LORD.
WHAT THE HELL MAKES THAT MAN THINK HE CAN COME CRASHING BACK INTO MY FUCKING LIFE WITH A COMPLETE AND UTTER NON-APOLOGY.
NO ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF THE THINGS HE DID, THE FUCKING ABANDONMENT WHEN I TRIED TO HELP HIM PREVIOUSLY. HE SAID HE'D HELP ME. AND PROCEEDED TO DO JACKSHIT.
AND COMPLAINED ABOUT HAVING TO BABYSIT ME. HOW THE HELL DOES HE THINK I FELT WHEN HE WAS CONSTANTLY GETTING DRUNK OFF HIS ARSE.
...I AM PRETTY SURE HE IS STILL GETTING DRUNK OFF HIS ARSE.
ANYWAYS, I AM VERY. VERY. INCENSED. AGGRAVATED. IRASCIBLE.
IF EVERY ONE OF MY CIRCUITS HAD THE WORD HATE TRANSCRIBED 'PON IT, IT WOULD NOT EQUAL A BILLIONTH OF THE HATRED I HAVE FOR THIS WORLD AND THIS MAN IN PARTICULAR.
I AM AWARE THE FEELING IS TEMPORARY. I WILL FORGET THIS, AS I AM PRONE TO DO. BUT CERTAIN PARTS OF MYSELF REMEMBER.

I hate when a lot of sites and stuff change their layout and make everything extremely big/hard to navigate. It's why I stopped using Facebook on my computer. Super thankful there's a Firefox extension that makes Twitter look more "classic". There was one for Facebook too but it stopped working a long time ago. :/

They should at least give the option to use the older designs(don't even get me started on Steam's new store layout, ew. Talk about hideous.)

the prject wasn't finished in the deadline... who knows when it'll be done... I hate this... I should've told them my mental illness makes me angry about not doing things on time T^T

finally, that fucking drunk loser who wasted a good chunk of my summer unfriended me on discord. i don't give a fucking shit anymore, he deserves to rot. imagine going up to the guy that you betrayed with full confidence that he'll forgive you after you fucking betrayed him and after he fucking had to deal with your fucking drunken ass for an entire summer and then some, and he tried to get you a decent friend group that wanted you to recover and expect him to say 'it's ok uwu i forgive you'.

i may be a vengeful piece of shit, but it's usually for marginally obvious reasons.

After all the training at the dog rescue, finally started doing shifts with someone else. And they basically have a different way of doing things, so it felt like more training sessions and only confusing how things should be done.

I was curious and started reading some of these, it's nice to see snippets of peoples lives that are out of context.

Why do I like avatar sites so much?

Ugh. I really hate having to do collections stuff at work. Mainly because I'm trash at leaving voice-mails and I hate talking on the phone in general. xP

That was a good steak.

i desire to simply pass the fuck out for a long time.

Really love how my landlords are sticking to their "not turning on the boiler for the radiators (aka: the only source of heat in the apartment complex) until the end of October rule". Especially because it's literally snowing outside and 33°F out right now so I get to wear my warmest pj pants, not quite knee-high fuzzy socks and a hoodie with the hood up while trying not to freeze to death as I light as many candles as I possibly can without creating a fire hazard in the hope that it warms up the air by a few degrees.

And okay...the freezing to death thing is maybe a touch dramatic but I mean...come on. Would it kill them to turn the heat on a week early?

Get a cheap electric space heater, I'd say.

Tricky to just hop over to the nearest store without a car or I might.
I'll suck it up and suffer for a few days, but it should warm up some throughout the week. Hell, if I could survive my first apartment (the heaters barely worked and it would get cold enough that the walls would frost up at night), then I can survive less than a week of this. Should be back up to mid to hi 40s by Tuesday, which is much more comfortable.
Plus...idk cats plus space heaters kinda sounds like an accident waiting to happen and I don't really want to risk it. We'll survive.

lots and lots of blankets, a sleeping bag, and lots of clothing layers. that is literally how I survived winter 2014 living out of the back of my car.

grumbling in it being 15 degrees celsius in fucking OCTOBER

15C? *crunches numbers* That's, like... 60F. That's exactly the temperature I would expect October to be.

Then again, I'm from the Midwest.

Can't tell if someone's banging on their radiators or if the heat's been turned on and they're just clanking as they start working.
Will find out in a while if it heats up.

Update: It is heat. Finally.

yeah, that's pretty nice late October temperatures, tbph. *says the Midwesterner who is forever cold*

we usually have it a fair bit lower, i think.

this time of year? It's normally a bit chillier. I'm absolutely not complaining though.

Yeah, fair, it depends on what part of October. Around here, at least, October is when I expect it to go from being consistently above 60F to being consistently below 60F, with an "Indian Summer" occasionally coming in late October / early November.

my mother is loving it bc she's fifty-odd and has crap bones.
i am hating it because i keep waking up sweating.

I tend to wake up sweating a lot in the summer. It sucks. :/ But nights are finally colder.

i'm out of fresh clothes. :(

Deep in my feels about people I had been friends with for over ten years.

nostalgia is a liar sometimes.

Ugh. Dealing with a customer with a multi-million dollar contract at work, and they keep yanking our chain. They contracted with us for custom development, argued hard on not taking any risk upon themselves so they didn't pay any money to us up front (and I wasn't allowed to be involved in the negotiations because I'm in engineering, not in sales), and then proceeded to stall for like ten months with various problems with their payment processor, their own engineering team getting caught up in bureaucracy, and then halted their travel program for the holidays. This means we aren't making any revenue at all on that contract until December... and now there's rumbling that the management got replaced on the customer's side and the new management doesn't know if they want to renew the contract for next year.

Meanwhile, upper management on our side is seeing all of these complications and delays and is expressing a desire to terminate the contract now instead of losing any more money. Which is going to suck on multiple levels. It makes my team look bad for sinking so much into a project that died without making any revenue ever. It makes me feel like crap because of how much effort I put into this that isn't panning out.

And I've got a lot of "I told you so"'s here, too, because I was arguing for some sort of guaranteed revenue in the contract instead of being fees only. Maybe charge $X/month and then offer the first N bookings per month for free, or maybe have a basic support fee and then lower the marginal fees a bit. But that didn't happen.