i managed to complete the CORE in Celeste.
fuck yeah.
also fuck doing the B-side. i am not doing the B-side, no sir. the original already caused me a lot of hell.

Uncomfortable realization that I like staying in character as CRT because it’s easier to just deal with everything from a purely logical standpoint, without all the human emotions. Facts, facts, facts. Objectivity only, no need for subjective opinions. Only data necessary is the data from solid facts and numbers.

As CRT, I can be as blunt as I want, relying solely on what I know and not what I feel, and in the same way, nothing can ever much hurt my feelings because he can’t be arsed to waste energy feeling insulted. He just sifts through whatever he’s given and disposes of the emotions.

It’s easier that way. Why doesn’t everyone communicate this way? It would make for fewer misunderstandings.

been playing a lot of dead cells recently. my hands keep giving me pain signals.

I've... been playing a BL/Yaoi visual novel on Steam. 8D

My retail curse has passed from clothes to furniture. Damn.
Found the PERFECT chair (SO COMFY! And not super bulky!) for when I start to redecorate my apartment (so I can be a gd adult finally, lol). Only it's the wrong color. It's a pastel baby pink. Ugh.

need to stop getting hungry at 2am.

my hands are giving me pain signals. stop that.

Espy I feel your pain.

My hands are cold. uwu

becoming light averse? after i've already had an eye infection *last year*? and my mum and brother making fun of my eye for looking red when it's a potential resurgence of that fucking eye infection? more likely than you think!

boy fucking howdy.

edit: also they're blaming it on the fact that i spend most of my time on computers, just like last time.

i am fairly certain that dryeye does not come with aversion and trouble adjusting to light.

Eyestrain does come with trouble adjusting to light, though...

Suppose so, but I'm usually okay w/ light adjustment.

Plus my eye was gunked up this morning(? afternoon?).

.u. So much ah, has happened since I've been offline..
and ah, also, not finished with Kingdom Hearts III..it's taking over my life. o-o In the best way.

...I sliced open another finger. Right index this time. Getting blood on everything again. Minor annoyance. +1 reason for robotic body: lack of most bodily fluids.

Ugh. Why do I suck at furniture arranging? *shoves graph paper with living room floor plan + key with desired furniture on it into the void for literally anyone to try to make into something functional becausr I can't visualize shit and my living room is so gd tiny*

Trying to wait til March to post anything major spoilery in regards to KH3 is kinda torture. D: With the exception of discussing it here in spoiler tags.

The house is all mine now that everyone is in bed for the night...

>8D and my brain just sang:
~Llet's go surfin' now
everybody's learnin' how
come on an' Safari with meee!~
come on an' Safari with me

I'll confess..... my brain is singing We Built This City 80% of the time(cause the song is such an earworm and while one of the worst songs is still pretty catchy..... shhhh......)

I really just want to shower, eat tangerines, watch a movie, avoid my bro and his girlfriend being all lovey-dovey, maybe actually get my writing gears turning in my head, play some more KHIII, get the damn laundry done, and maybe doodle another character of mine.
:3 I really liked the way Dice (my lazy crazy space-pirate captain) turned out. I think I'll try drawing Sua next. -u-
Ohhh and I have to flippin' do something today. :[ I can already sense it. T-T
From the moment I was woken up so damn early and ordered to work the printer because I guess my bro and I are the only ones who know how to work machines around here, so I woke up really grouchy.
Indiana Jones has made me less grumpy and more awake for some reason...
I think I'll eat breakfast for once and then go shower. :c I gotta treat myself better like I said I would...*sigh*

mmmmmm got an itchy back.

mum offered to scratch it for me and i remembered how much i miss getting physical contact. so that's fun.

Huehuehhuehuehuehuehe Funimation finally kicked Vic. Get wrecked, scum.

OuO I'm gonna stay up..all night @u@ long...and it's all my fault
because I'm an idiot and I pay the price for my lack of sleep in the morning. X'D CAFFEIIIINE!~

I wish I had a better sleep schedule myself.

It's 1:14 am. :[ Part of me wants to turn in at 2. Buuut part of me wants to see how long/quietly I can really stay up for...>w> I can't chicken out at 4 this time. <x{ mmmhph! But imma be so tired I'll miss breakfasts hahaha! <x}

I generally try to not pull allnighters unless I absolutely have to, because it fucks with my mental healthand is capable of messing up an entire week.

I'm going to sleep before I get hungry. -u- No way I can eat this late. That'll physically mess me up.. =~=; I don't like the rumbleys..nope nope.

I take no joy in seeing someone's life destroyed, whether they've done something wrong or not. And ongoing research is casting doubt on that.

*gestures vaguely*

also, i'm feeling that burn out i get from playing games again. mm. might see if i can't do some celeste stuff. maybe i'll be able to get through the entire game deathless, hoho.

The other day I was exhausted while showering before bed. I didn't even realize that I used body wash on my hair and shampoo on my body. I mean it's all soap right? I just think it's just so bleh because I was so tired it didn't even occur to me that I picked up the wrong bottles until I was half asleep in bed.

Yeah, it's just soap. It might be a tiny bit harsh on your hair but unless you're desperately trying to preserve long luscious locks it'll be fine for just a one-time mistake.

Just try to not use conditioner on your body.

Ugh. Need to quit losing all my motivation.

When you're expecting a package but tracking hasn't updated for two weeks and the seller won't respond to any of your messages. Tomorrow is the last expected delivery date so I'm gonna file a claim if it's not here by tomorrow.

-u- *clears throat*
HEY! PACHUCO! >W<

I really want to code up some pay-what-you-want games, but christ, I don't have a paypal or anything.

I also need to get to coding those ukagakas.

You guys lol please. I (usually) know how to shower. xD hahahaha

So my items are in my town now and should be here tomorrow, so that clears up everything. Also I was stupid and didn't realize things were taking forever to get here due to Chinese New Year. Oops. ;u;

(And also Vic's career deserves to be thrown into the toilet after what he's done for the past 30 FREAKIN' YEARS. K I'm done venting about it here.)

I’m fine, I’ll be fine, I’m just GROSSLY SOBBING ABOUT OPPORTUNITY

Matcha chewy candies are so good *u*

:D It's raining! It's pouring!
I'm going to bed dreaming about a stormy vampire castle! x]

I HAVE FEELINGS ABOUT NON-BINARY CHARACTERS IN VIDEOGAMES AND I WILL FUCKING FIGHT EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING

ALSO I HAVE A COLLECTION OF KNIVES